Jennifer

I have discovered a few things.

1. I do emotionally eat when I do not deal with personal issues. No kidding!
2. I do not tend eat emotionally when really in the thick of real life stress. Have had some of this and if anything I do not feel like eating. Then, I am so very famished I must eat. What a concept, eating for hunger!

It’s really hard to ignore the realities and I guess that is more taxing on me than actually being brave and living a more authentic life. I may have lost my work friends but countless strangers are unknowingly appreciative. I’ll take that. I just miss so many of them and they
will not know why I am gone. I did my best!

3 weeks now and 3 done. Like everything else in my life, slow.

So I just decided to be positive despite the Bo-ho-ers of my work and it worked.
I chose to not be a grouch but rather used humor and everything fell into place. Work is just work and I know I should be letting the Negative influence my food choices. So practice. Also working on developing a new behavior of no sweets or comfort food at night when I do need that energy. Tea (herbal or decaf) alone or sweetened with just a hint of stevia. I did all right yesterday but there is some room for a wee bit improvement.

Now why the heck would I ever use other people as an accuse to make poor food choices? Do I perhaps have reasons for holding onto the weight? NO I DO NOT!!! I want to be in better shape. I deserve to be in better shape. I will make the choices that are healthy for me. It’s better to say “no thanks” with no apologies. Good times. New directions in so many ways.

And so I have arrived back at Buddyslim after so many months because when I thought where do I go after a big ol’ binge I thought, of course, my old stomping ground.  It was a real surprise sugar binge because I have not had one of these in a really long time and I thought I was cured…lol  Yes if only this were possible.  Stress, stress, stress and inappropriate food choices and here I sit.   Way to sweet for my own good!  Frankly, I am more shocked at how I do not feel sick…not mentally or physically.  Still, it was not right to eat junkiness when I should have just vented in some other way.  Maybe more appropriately, use my voice at work and give a person or two a piece of my mind.  Well, it be interesting to see how the sugar affects my emotions love term.  lol   Could be scary or not so much.  Time will tell.  Haha….

I am not going to say that I am on a sugar cleanse this time in the hopes of achieving a perfectionistic state of what?  Health?  Obsession?  I am just going to try and make better choices.  And say I was to go a few days with out chocolate candies, cookies, smores, protein bars with crappy sugars, malt barley sweetened carob chips, well than that would be ideal for me.

This is me on a mini journey with the help of my Buddyslim blog.  I really do need to stir up the pot and stop being the goody goody chick only to keep things calm.  The time has come to be the voice rather than the person who eats her bloody emotions!  Also the balance of knowing when to let certain things go will be ideally healthy.  Hmmmm……..  Here goes….

Exercise before work and then off to just do it.  Live better.