Everyday is a gift
This is just a little something for me. I guess you could say I need to get it off my chest. There was some negativity going on in my head yesterday (AND work is a bit stressful, but I still feel like I must do it) and it was not so easy.
It was really important for me to feel that discomfort because I had to see that how I sometimes see things in definitely not how they are. That was my moment. Ok… I had a couple neat moments! I was creating fictitious images of reality in the pursuit to Know. But that is not knowing at all of course. Sometimes I have that song in my head “everybody hates me, nobody likes me, going to the garden to eat worms”. And it is a lonely feeling. Sometimes we have to be annoyed with others to see our own issues. But I tell you, I love these moments when you wake up from the pity daze (pity party?) and you say, I get it. Well I love Oprah and I am thankful for her shows. I can not say I make a point to see her show on any sort of a regular basis. But it seems to me that I always seem to see the Right shows. Anyways, vagueness is where it is at. This is for me. I love the “ahhh HA” moments in life. I am really thankful for the calmness in knowing that what I do though to help people is where I must be. Sometimes I have an uneasiness about what I am Really Suppose To Be Doing. Life is truly a gift.
I have been completely half-assed with my plan (great days and bad days!) this week and that MIGHT make for a successful zizagged week - we will see tomorrow *sigh*. But today on my day off I give it my all. Today I commit to a day of intensity, relaxation and completely healthy foods. This is not a hardship. This is a gift. This is my challenge for myself. Because as much as I love this site and how so many wonderful people have been here for me, I NEED ME TO BE IN MY CORNER FIRST AND AWAYS!
And a Big Thank You to all the special people out there. 
Ahhh come on, you know you are special…hehe
*clink* Tea cheers to you & me!
MY CHECKLIST: (Inspired by Jo’s list and an article I read about scheduling yourself too.)
Elliptical (45) - For 10 minutes of the 45 I lifted and worked out with 2- 5 lb. weights. My body and heart said 10 minutes was enough!!!
Yoga (50) - it ended up being 45 min. of Hard Body Yoga with NO froggie squats. lol
Interval walk (30) or just a walk (1 hour)
Free weights/lunges/crunches - while I watched Y&R 
3 balanced meals
2-3 balanced snacks - just 2 as supper was plenty sufficient
Laundry
Clean kitchen & bathroom
Buddyslim catch-up Love my buddies
30 minutes to relax and do nothing - 20 is what I could find
Read my new book ( Infidel by Ayaan Hirsi Ali) - before bed
Cleaned the kids litter boxes (Oscar’s and yes, Meeshka (hamster) has a litter box)
Tea breaks
everybody hates me, nobody likes me, going to the garden to eat worms
LOL Now I’m going to have that little ditty going through my head all day long… I wonder if worms are “good” for you… hmmmm…hehe
I think we all have those days that we ask “Is this it? Is this my lot in life? What is my purpose here on earth?” Stuff like that. I know I do anyway. Truth is, we all have our special talents and what we do well, and our lot in life is to accept it and do it to the best of your abilities and be happy about it, know matter how small or how large. Does that make sense?
I don’t ever get to see Oprah show but my Mom hardly ever misses it, thus I get Oprah’s wisdom through her.
Have a great day off Buddy. Wish I could skip right up there and go for that walk with you. I need some girrrrrrrrrl time… there’s too many men in my house. HA!
Lots of love and hugs blowing your way today,
Shan
I saw Oprah yesterday. I don’t watch much TV because I read SO much. 13-15 books per month. Since Ed is gone, the way I live is through books. I am so homebound without my sweetie And of course you don’t read much when you have someone with you. Really interesting show, but I tuned in late. About the ladies who helped each other through the bypass maze? Same one? Lots of buddy-ism there! Love you, sweetie. Hang in there, Marge, Oh I think the last two words of that phrase are “and die”. So worms must not be good for you.
Great checklist! You’re doing great.
Jennifer I wish you weren’t so vague with your blogs (on the personal stuff) because I oftentimes feel “inadequate.” You know, I feel that I want to help, but I can’t because I don’t know what ails your heart and soul. Anyhow, that’s my own personal issue and nothing to do with you, since you obviously KNOW what is going on in your life and ultimately, only YOU know what needs to be done, when and how. I want you to know that if you need an ear to listen, a hand to hold and a shoulder to cry on, please count on me.
Now about the TO DO list…I think it’s wonderful and it seems like you were busy for someone who had a day off!!
I love your check list.
And…. here we call ‘em pity parties….
I remember when I was a teen, my girlfriends and I used to get together and really have pity PARTIES where we would share the stuff of life together….
Nowadays, I am amazed at the subtle triggers that still bring me to that place, and I am amazed at how much better I feel when I get out the other side.