No longer doing the challenge
I like how I feel at night and I like going to bed with an empty stomach, but I can not do this challenge. I feel like a dork for dropping out, but it does nothing to improve my thoughts. It is simply something to control and I do not need this in my evolving world, The Life of Jenn.
I really want to look at why I want to eat when it is not hunger, but I feel chastised by myself when I eat at night. This is not helpful. I did not fail myself last night. I just lived and ate a little.
I am thankful for so many things. I am thankful for my buddies here (a buddy who made me see today that I need to let go of the no food at night challenge because it is too hard line in my mind) people who understand me, love, forgiveness, feeling patient with myself (does not always happen), my boyfriend, Oscar& Meeshka (my fur children), snow (it was so icy and then it snowed more… good to walk on now), healthy simple recipes. And I am thankful that I am able to read blogs today so I can see what is going on in my buddies worlds. Marge wrote her list and since I am reading today she inspired me to think about about the important things. A challenge is not important for me. Loving me is all that is important and so I will attempt to find this balance. I do not know why this is such a challenge for me, but falling off and getting back on, this is my life…hehe I have to accept that for much of my life, as much as this seems dramatic, I have been left to find my own way (NOT on Buddyslim and in my weightloss journey…. I speak of life generally) and I am not so good at knowing what is a good idea for me. I swear, it is like a bad Trial and Error nightmare, hehe……. But it is my life and it is the only one I have. So…………………………. I am off to have a healthy breakfast, work out and get back to reading about my buddies. Love ya all.
Happy Thanksgiving in the USA to all my buddies and their friends & families. *hugs*
We all have works for us and what doesn’t. If it’s holding you back or you feel really constrained by it then it wouldn’t be a good idea. You want a challenge to work for you and not against you. Keep up the good work!
Jen, I too am getting away from the fight, war, and struggle of weight loss with its endless resolutions and failures. I just want to be… to be here in this world in my body without self- imposed fights and restrictions.
Have a great day!
XXX
Tatiana
If the challenge isn’t what you need, then you are right to drop out of it. You need to do what works for you and there is nothing wrong with making different decisions than some other buddies you love and respect. That is what is so great about this life….DIVERSITY. So go on with your self and enjoy the day!!!!
Hi, Babe, How in the world can you NOT love your sweet self? Isn’t it odd, others can love and treasure us, but we always find things we think we need to fix? Love youself, but work on enjoyment with what you consider your flawed self. Don’t set yourself up for any contest that makes you uncomfortable. Life is short. Love your s.o., your kiddos and YOU. Love your blogs, but Grandma Marge wants to hug and make it all better. Finished the pies and candied sweet potatoes, now need to wrestle that turkey into the oven and get the stuffing made. We are not eating until 5:30 as one of my sons worked until 5:00 this morning. FORD, hope they stay in business. Hugs, Marge
Good for you my sweet! Sometimes a challenge isn’t right. I’ve found that challenges in my weight loss journey have absolutely NO impact on my feelings or my success. This is why I’ve not joined any challenges. I’ve had people tell me, “but you need to have someone you’re accountable to…”. I completely disagree with that. If I can’t be accountable to myself first, then I will fail. So, here’s to being accountable to ourselves and loving ourselves! Thanks for the booster note… Mom, grandma and I are going over to my uncle’s house around 2pm today for our Thanksgiving dinner. I made fat-free spinach dip and it actually tastes REALLY good. I’m also making deviled eggs - because my uncle LOVES how I make them. I will refrain this year… and honestly, I’m not even tempted to have one. I let mama and grandma do my taste-testing for me!
I love ya girl!!!! {{{{{Jenn}}}}}
Thank you everyone!!! And I am so incredibly thankful for all the blogs. I really enjoyed reading them. NOW, I will go and exercise. Had to read first…hehe
Good for you! Kudos for realizing that loving oursielves is most important! Lol, you call your pets “fur kids” like we do! Love ya!
Jen, when it comes down to losing weight we are all different and what works for person may not work for you ! I’m glad you had the courage to say”This is not working for me !” . That’s perfectly okay ! Good Luck ! Kimmi
Hey jenn!! Dont get yourself down - be comfortable with your choices and from the sounds of it you seem to know excactly what your doing! You look amazing and are healthy and thats all that matters!! Just keep it up thats all! Im so happy for your success!
You are such an amazing girl Jenn!! You really are focused in knowing what you want and how to get it. I’m not good for challenges either and you know best what works for Jenn!! I think you look beautiful right now, and we ALL LOVE YOU!!! Whatever you decide you can always count on us to be your biggest fans!