Eyes opened & Confused
This might be the weirdest blog I have ever written and I am just going to go for it to try and figure somethings out.
The thing about me, and I have known this for sometime, is that I feel others pain. I literally do. Not all the time, but more often then I would like, I literally feel the ailments of others. Sometimes I have experienced a client’s bladder infection, joint pain and depression (this last one, not so hard to believe) when I am fine and healthy. Now, why be around the elderly and the sick? It is simply put the only time I feel like I am doing what I should be.
The same goes true for today. I think I was feeling fine. Catching up on blogs, figured out that the subscriptions on this site do work (I will be quicker to respond to my buddies), and seeing that a buddy was not doing so well. I just caved and it has been downhill ever since. It will be an early supper tonight and then that is it. I am back on track tomorrow. Why would I do this? I am not seeking answers, just a little frustrated. Maybe I felt bad for not seeing the issue sooner. No idea. Just guesses.
So it is strange to me that I go towards the sick, yet I often will avoid people close to me and go inward so to speak. It is very confusing. I try to not let other people’s issues become my own. But so often I just take it all on.
I will workout after supper and make tomorrow a good one! I am not weighing in tomorrow.
I know, I know…… not a biggie. It is one day. But damn damn double damn and damn damn again :) My client says this when she is frustrated…lol *smiles*
Not sweating this, but I just needed to get rid of the words from my head. All better!
Tea cheers to you. Thanks for reading.
If you’re feeling better, then that’s all that matters. I too used to take up a lot of my family’s issues until I got an AHA! moment and realized the only thing that did was hurt me and not help them. That didn’t make sense to me. It’s a mental issue….not a psychiatric issue but just something you need to talk yourself through, “It is not my issue. I can care but caring doesn’t mean feeling their pain, etc.” I’m just glad you felt better after writing!
I read something about natural empaths, may be what you are experiencing is related to this. In my prof. training, one suggestion on how to decrease taking in clients’ painful feelings was to imagine a semi-permeable barrier around yourself while working with clients. I also think that it may be useful to see if you can tell the difference between you taking in client’s pain as opposed to client “putting” their feelings on you as a defense. How do you let go of these feelings at the end of the day? That was a challending part for me, I think it’s best to experiment and find a combination of things that work for you.