Happy New Year
I adjusted my ticker and I am not discouraged because I feel pretty much the same with only a little poofiness here and there. Twas the season to let go a bit and that was fine. Nuts, cheese, loved the really good wine I picked out, chocolate. I have to say, the cookies and squares that I have loved in the past, I did not love as much. I need to remember this for the future. I did not indulge in these past loves as much and this is just a sign of how much I have changed over the past year. I recognize I still have loves, but even milk chocolate leaves me unsatisfied and wanting, wanting wanting. And even more milk chocolate does not ever satisfy it. So, I am trying to say NO to the milk chocolate.
George surprised me and so did my love for a new red wine. Last night David and I enjoyed some good conversation and discovered the joy of slightly more expensive wine along with a nice old cheese. Now not exactly diet food. We are making this along with some fruit, dark chocolate and maybe a nicely prepared protein our monthly or bi-monthly treat. We REALLY loved the combination and the experience of the quality. WOW….. a good way to bring in the New Year and necessary considering all the stress that has been hovering over this month. Good times. We did not even know it was officially the New Year until we heard the cheers from outside, downtown.
So, not exactly clean eating, but those are a few of my treat foods to be enjoyed. Clean eating is a manner or eating well with no chemicals, added sugars and bad fats and this is something I continue with. Well let’s be serious, I start up because the “holidays” have been hindering the clean eating plan. I am going to continue with the exercise that has been so good for me. I also in the New Year begin to work on some other areas of my life that are a little shabby. My goal is to be less sad, less sorry, less angry at myself and more forward, organized and happy with my requests. People may be hearing such things as “with all due respect, I request that you mind your own business because I have other things to think about other then your petty and unnecessary ideas of how my life would be better in your eyes. Think more about your life and less about mine, please.” LOL… shit like this never goes over well. People usually need less words in order to catch the drift. What ever. I use to be better in the moment. As my therapist asked me this year, “what is it that you most use to like about yourself?” Oh yeh. Now I remember. Confidence. This I use to to have. I am tired of the claws out there. But it does not work to fight back. It only works to use my words with a gentle force that wakes people up to the person I have always been. Sleeping for a time, but ready to make this life of her’s a bit better…..This is my year.
With the loss of weight and thoughts of diet and exercise I have come to better place then I have been. But this is not everything of course. This year is about finding me and learning about my passions and limitless heart and power. I feel a little overwhelmed and excited too.
Tea Cheers to all. Happy New Year !!! *wink*
[Diet related info: I am doing a 10 day detox to start my year off. ]
Happy New Year to you. And I need to work on being able to say “NO. I’m sorry, I can’t do that right now.” Just the family do this to me. Well, one certain member. Come on! We are strong, forceful women. How do I keep letting this happen to me? Do you ever feel this way? To a stronger new year, you and me! Love, Marge
Jen, good for you ! I am so glad you are doing things for you this year too !As for the treats move on, what’s done is done ! You are strong and I know you’re going to make it ! Kimmi
Oh Jenn, what I have discovered is that words are unnecessary. Your actions speak for themselves. I don’t know if you can avoid these people or be far from them (in both distance and emotion). We are human beings, creatures functioning on feelings so these can never be avoided. However, the balance between self preservation/protection and being around others is key ~ at least for me. Whatever your challenges, we’re here to read and maybe put our 2 cents in. Confidence is a state of mind. The knowledge that there is no one like you and there will never be again. The reality that when you walk into a room (or are alone in a room :)) you are the best Jenn in the moment. Best of luck to you in accomplishing all your goals in the coming year.
Oh Jenn….I really feel your struggle. I know exactly what you are talking about because I have lived it and to some extent continue to live it. I sincerely hope that this year is a more peaceful and insightful year for us both. You are a wonderful, amazing woman and I’m so proud to have you amongst the top of my buddies. I am looking forward to see you blossom and prosper in 2008. May God bless you always and may He give your the strength and guidance you need to live a healthier, happier and more balanced life!! Tea cheers to you!
Hey Jenn. I just read your previous blog and now this one. Sometimes people should just learn to keep their comments to themselves. (Your Partner’s mother) Ahhh, what would life be if only that would happen. Alot more peaceful, right!?!
Anyway, I can see how far you have come in the short time that we have gotten to “know” each other a little better. You seem to be at peace with a lot of things in your life. (Weight struggles being one of them) I admire you for that. One of my New year’s resolutions is to try to live life in the present. I wish the same for you. Enjoy life as it happens and not stress about what tomorrow will bring. I am right there with you in spirit and I wish all the best for you this year and many more to come!
That’s my Jen! This IS going to be a great year!
This year we shall put the “funk” back in dys”func”tional, eh? LOL
Here’s to dysfunctional families and all the love, entertainment, and excitement we can squeeze out of em!
Hugggggggggggggggs,
Shan