Positive Thinking and Actions
Well the food challenges are not for me. As soon as I think NO, I really start to think YES. No sugar!!! I want sugar! It is really a way of being. I always need to remember that I can not be denied. Only positive thinking works and my buddies have told me over and over. I know! I seem to think I can conquerer this, but I need to accept some things and go with it. Exercise is the only way I will lose the last bit of body fat. Has anyone ever been close to goal after having been a large number and had a huge appetite? I have not been working out like I did in December either. I guess I need to find the right amount of activity and hope I do not eat us out of house and home…lol Well I know what I need to do. Eat good healthy bulky food and move moderately.
It was David’s b-day and I did not deny myself all day. I did not do well with the challenge and as much as I wanted to do it, I can not. I enjoyed some snacks, some sirloin steak, did not enjoy the wine (I apparently like expensive) and really enjoyed the first 5 minutes of some chocolate and some cake. *sigh* Well, I think I only needed the steak. Sometimes I am repulsed by meat and then other times I need it. I really do believe this. Well I am eating mostly vegetarian (and plenty of fish) until I need, really need other nutrients.
I started the AM with my detox and a vegetarian shake (real lemon juice, spinach, tomatoes, celery, and my complete veg. protein powder, flax seeds). I really feel so alive when I start my day with something raw. Strange. Home cooked/prepared meals today. Notice I am not saying “no eating out” because that would be negative…hehe. We are going to what I feel will be an awesome movie. I am looking forward to it and I will share later. I do not want to set the hopes too high, but I think it might be the best movie I see this year….lol Ahhh we will see. Theater popcorn is never something I crave so that is easy.
So eating healthy and moving more. It really is this simple. And when I do not try and complicate things with unrealistic expectations, LIFE IS GOOD. No kidding! Ahhh I do sound like my mother. *shakes head*
Have a great week everyone.
P.S.: Note on the journal thing. I am not proud of this perfectionist attitude, but I ripped the first 5 pages out of my new journal. I wrote religiously in the other until it was finished never ripping out a page. But last night I was PISSED OFF at MYSELF. No more ripping, but I just was so mad! Today, back to honest journaling. No guilt. Respect !!! Ahhh how the Buddhist mentality left me around Christmas. Since when did I not love a complex situation??? Why can I not live a spiritual life rather then being confined to a religious one? NO KIDDING.
I was hungrier too when I got closer to goal and then got to it. I guess that is why I packed some of the weight back on! I too have been struggling with the concept of telling myself certain things are off limits. Only makes me want it more. When can we get that one figured out!?!? I am shooting for a great week so I hope you have one as well! Healthy thoughts!
Hmmm, I wondered about that. “Being hungrier closer to goal” I have had that problem, too. I’m struggling with keeping it off and losing the rest. We can do this together! “grits teeth and hangs on”
I used to be like that (unable to tell myself I couldn’t have something) but I wasn’t losing, even with exercise so I’ve had to be somewhat diciplined with myself. I’m my own spoiled child. But you’ll do fine. Your lifestyle is already healthy and I think ultimately that’s what we’re all striving for. Take care with the diet today…..
“Well the food challenges are not for me. As soon as I think NO, I really start to think YES.”
Jenn…this is one of the many reasons I come back to read your blogs again and again…I always learn so much from you…I do. I always connect with you too because I understand “OUR” struggles….
For me….telling myself NO is a downfall, as is making timed goals, such as I will lose 10 lbs. by such and such date. Another pitfall of mine, feeling like a failure when I don’t reach said goals….you inspire me to LEARN, ACCEPT and WORK with my strengths and limitations!! Didn’t I say your presence here is invaluable? I mean it girl, I derive much strength from you!
Not o be simple, but DITTO on Jo up there. And, i too have found deprivation not working for me. I love the idea of it being about thinking positively. Nice especially since so much of this weight loss stuff can be rooted in such deep negativity towards ourselves and from society. beautiful thoughts. you can keep doing it and as buddhism teaches you there is always struggle in life as well. it is how we respond, yes?