Jennifer

SO yesterday I was not feeling so well. I could feel the glands at the top of my neck were a bit swollen and sore. I have been surrounded by people who are ill of course because, tis the season! So I stayed reasonable with my points but I did have 34, which seems like a lot, but it was about 1700 calories and it was a low fat day too. If one were to eat a lot of veggies of course on WW, that would add some calories, not points, but I was running low so it was a low veg/fruit day. (Thank goodness for frozen!) Grocery shopping yesterday night. Shopping is like meditation and fun. Weird, but true for me. I probably should not shop at night, but neither one of us really wanted to head out today unless we have to. I am sure that I wanted a snack as much as my healing body needed one…. 1/4 of an orange, cup of grapes, and an open faced sandwich with back bacon and dijon mustard (LOW IN POINTS ! Wow, I was surprised. Nitrites be damned!). Could have been worse. Woke up healthy. A very good nights sleep, but I must remember eating at night almost always makes me dream some weird dreams. Might be a reason not to eat at night. Wish I could have some hot sultriness without the late night snacks.

I am maintaining. I am weighing in tomorrow. The meals are going well. Three medium portioned meals and one-two snacks depending on when my first meal is. I noticed yesterday when I woke up so early (6 AM) that I was thinking about how I would spread those points out through out the day and how I would have to make it low fat in order to get the most food so I was not hungry. If the truth be told, it was a bit of a comfort to eat at home and eat RELAXED. All this week it has been rush rush. I do not like eating like this because I am someone who enjoys food. Even if it is a smaller portion and I darn well am going to enjoy every bite! lol And I sure would like to enjoy much more slower. So, with some organization in coming week, that is what I am planning for.

Keeping up with the workouts, because I hope that if I do not some buddy will kick my cyber-behind!!! Hehe… all is well. I am off to work out soon. Working the legs/abs and doing some cardio. Tomorrow I am doing free weights as it has been a long time. Really too long.

These days I am not thinking about having a free day or what I can or can not have. I am getting back to a plan of how I want to eat for the rest of my life. Balanced. Portions. Tasty (either light or explosive with flavor-depends on my mood). Dessert. I love ending the meal (lunch or supper) with something to REALLY conclude it. I find this helpful. I have that something sweet (10 grams of dark chocolate, Lindt or Poulain, or fruit, some other sweet AS LONG AS I KNOW THE POINTS VALUE) and c’est fini ! The journaling perhaps may get old… sooner then later. But I will do it until I get to my goal. Whenever, whenever this may be? Oh I think SOON. It really is harder once you get to goal. I can see where I want to lose it. Maybe you can not see it so much in those pictures because I am not sitting down. Love the spreading leg thing, not! Still sometimes when I catch myself in the mirror I do not even recognize myself. Tis a good thing. And I wish I did sometimes, but I do not feel the urgency to get to goal. Maybe somedays I do and if I think about the ladies who talk about bathing suits… ok, there is a slight desperation, but IT IS SO MUCH NICER TO see the big picture. I am really thankful for this moment RIGHT NOW.

Have a great weekend everyone! *hugs*