Master-peace Me
My psyche is a little overwhelmed with all the dieting stuff. Maybe I am just tired of it all. I see the hanging skin from my stomach and thighs (hand fulls of it !!! WISH this was an exaggeration, but it is not) and I am proud of my accomplishments. I almost though miss the days where I was fat and could have a loss every week. That was a high like I know many of you are feeling each and every week. So much easier to lose back then! But now I know I need to not focus on the losing. I need to gather and build, chose my paint and create. Yes there is the strength training and then there is the personal growth of me. All in time, little by little, this is my life. It just feels like it is a lonely and sometimes empty struggle. Not sure why I feel like this. I need to Feed myself in a new way. I need to find that spark that I once had.
News worthy stuff. There is no scale in the house and I am weighing in monthly. Tosca Reno in her book suggests getting rid of it, but it always felt so scary. But I think I have come to the point where I do not need to lose too much more. I just need to tone up. This does not mean I can eat what ever, but I am more relaxed with food. I can feel it and though the feeling comes and goes, I know that food is nourishment and not a punishment or a soother.
I loved the first official day back with strength training. Though Saturday really helped with that pumped feeling, I did not feel like I gave it my all. Yesterday I pushed it and it felt so good. I will be posting my weeks routine in the the walking/exercise forum on Sunday. Now, off to my Tuesday routine - elliptical and pilates. Laundry and work.
It is strange to feel blue, at peace and eager….. in a good way. Just a strange feeling. Oh what will this day bring? Hate to tempt the fates ….lol But I hope that everyone finds some true peace through out their day.
Hope you have a beaUtiful day *hugs*
Hugs back to you Jenn…hope your day goes well. I think the strength training is just what your looking for. And how incredible that you don’t look at food in the way you used to. No more eating for comfort, only eating for nourishment. Its funny my husband always used to say “I eat to live, I don’t live to eat” But since he quit smoking his obsession with food is apparent. Oh well, one day at a time…I hope you find balance and peace today my dear friend Jennifer. a;)
Hey Jen, I feel ya. I was thinking that same thing this morning, like “now what” I’m almost there in the weight loss, too, and I do miss that old excitement. But we have to keep going. I also have that loose skin and am working on it. Love how our attitudes towards food changes also. I no longger turn to it for comfort. Hang in there, girl, we will make it, love ya, Kama
Methinks you have now turned a corner on this journey and you are entering a new path. It can be a little scary, but then again, if we do not learn and grow and take new paths, then we stagnate.
You mention the loose skin. Have you ever given any thought to corrective surgery for that? It could be a goal… save up the money and give yourself that gift. I know you’ve certainly earned it. Look at all the weight that you have lost!
I love reading your blogs and hearing your mind’s thoughts Jennifer. You help to keep me focused and grounded.
Hugggggggggggs to you sweetie,
Shan