Does stress make you actually very hungry?
Because I do not think it was emotional…just very hungry!
So I just realized that I am the snack lady, usually because I always have little snacks on hand in case of hunger. Though today I did not take my purse to work (for reasons I shall not get into) and sitting in the ER with my client who I believe intentionally acted more sick then she was, for ever, forever we sat. No snacks and I found myself getting more and more bitchy…. AND I ATE BREAKFAST. This young girl sucks the life right out of me and yet I have to stick her out because she is my last client. I can not quit because I know that I will have the need to come back and finish unfinished business, again. Plus, I feel for her, I want to help her. I need patience. I have to be done. God, grant me the strength to make it through this month and not quit. But mostly, I do not want to take anymore clients either, because I need to be done this job. Moving on. So how is this food related? Well like I said, no snacks and I am an angry bear dealing with issues I am not even qualified to deal. Mental issues !!! Well, I feel mental at least every month, but still do not have the answers for what am I to do with this month. I mean I know what I am doing with my studies, this is great! But I feel like I am a cat in water.
So I was so hungry when I got home that I scarfed down some vegetarian lasagna (nearly pasta free!) from last night. It was really tasty and I hardly enjoyed it. Well, next time I will remember my snack. I love food too much to not enjoy my little portions….lol
Ahhh I feel so much better.
Sometimes just venting makes everything better doesn’t it Jennifer??
Sorry about your long day at the ER…you did good considering you had no snacks. I would have felt like you, seems I’m always eating something. Your client is very very blessed to have you…hope your day gets better!! Love ya!!
Sorry you had a crappy day Jennifer.
Hugs,
Tatiana
I was waiting for the punchline, you know where you eat a gallon of ice-cream and washed it down with pop, but instead I read about a virtually pasta-free vegetarian lasagna and I think…you poor thing, I should run out and get you some ice-cream!! LOL!!
Be proud of yourself my friend…it was a harmless meal although I agree with you about enjoying our food!
You WILL make it through this month, and because you WILL make it through, you will be able to, at the end of it, feel a sense of closure, accomplishment and some great self-satisfaction of a job well done. THEN you can dive into those studies with no lingering thoughts hindering you. You will not quit, and because of it, you will come out a stronger person. This I truly know about you Jennifer.
*hands Jennifer a nice crisp apple and gives her a BIG HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG*
Shan
Hope your day gets better! I do think stress affects my appetite. Need to have lots of healthy stuff around, Hugs, Kama
Oh, Jennifer, I used to do that work, too, and it is stressful, and appetite stealing and creating and all of that. You are so smart with yoursefl to hang in there so that you can leave knowing you gave all you could. I’ve never seen you in action but my guess is that you are tremendous help with your clients. When they are tough sometimes the emotions get all wily in us caretakers. Breathe, let it out, and find that gracious spirit for yourself and for allthat you do. Maybe then food will taste better on a day like that. Have you read the Zen of Eating? You may like it very much.
peace! ps - i’m a snack carrier now, too!