Jennifer

I am living in a different way these days and I can not truly describe it other then to say I feel a Peace I have not felt in so long. In fact when I was younger, a little when I was a younger adult, I use to feel this kind of presence, but I always thought that I was wasting time. But taking time to relax and not think so much is energizing and freeing. I feel busier then I use to feel with what I need to accomplish, but I am enjoying it all and what needs to be done no longer feels like a burden. Everything is good. I recognize there are complaints to be said if I so chose, but it is so much nicer to see things as they are and not how I think them to be.

There is less time that I focus on exercise and food and I am just doing and enjoying. I am not so wrapped up in numbers, but rather I am trying to just be. Some old habits started to creep into my moment and then I recognized their hindrance and corrected it. No feeling bad. I guess I am really trying to deal with the negative thoughts that seem to creep into my mind more frequently, as a test, but even they can not get me down for long. There is so much peace in the presence. And no I am not on crack or pot….LOL. I really just feel so much lighter.

I do not feel the old obsessions, addictions or the need to do what is right. I am just living well!

*hugs* …. I hope that all my buddies are doing well and finding happiness.

I have been away for a little getting some things done and trying to enjoy the moments of the day too. I have to schedule things and my studies are tops on my list. They are coming before everything and this is a first. Trying not to feel bad about this too. I do most of the house work at night, meet with my last client a couple times a week and study. I am also enjoying the little things and trying to get in some enjoyable activities like reading my book (and all that goes along with The New Earth), games night, socializing a little and thinking about new things I can do, will do…. all very exciting to have a new adventure where it all seems possible. Sure I have my doubts sometimes, but I am embracing the unknown and all the possibilities. Truly the book could not have come at a better time. Because as I study anatomy again, those same negative voices are popping into my head about whether I will finish this time. I really want to be a natural nutritionist and believe that the voices of failure will go away as I start to embrace, believe and live in the moment.

No thoughts about bad foods……..good foods…. Just loving me and feeding my soul… pants are a bit loser too. I guess I have always known that by loving me better, everything else would fall into place. But I really had to experience the restrictiveness to feel how truly wrong it is for me. It is not about not having certain foods. I always have a little of something if I really want it. But it is more about enjoying the goodness and appreciating what is, what is good, what is whole, what is beaUtiful, what is NOW.

Have a good day Everyone! Cheers to us finding our ways….

P.S.: I will try to enjoy my studies today…. hehe. I will do what I can *wink* ………….Progress, after all.

I am reading the best book. Truly these kinds of books are good for me and this quality is so hard to find. When light comes into my world, no matter what form or thought it takes, I feel alive and I know there are possibilities beyond even what I normally think possible. The book, A New Earth - Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose, of course! It is by Eckhart Tolle and it is Oprah’s book club pick. On top of this, she is doing a world wide class and class starts for free on Monday, March 3. Check out her website if you are intrigued. *wink* Every Monday night for ten weeks. This book is a must and I guess this is how ideas change. If fear, anger, anxiety and conflict are ruling a mind and we all experience chaos or madness (we learn there are many words from various religions that mean ultimately the same thing), we can let ourselves see, we all can have a shift in our consciousness, if we are ready. I am so excited about this book and I have only just begun. This is where I am partially at.

Also, so far and I am so excited about this, I have learned, that my real me is not a perfectionist at all. Sometimes I try to achieve this and it is just not me. All it does is show failure which is not me either. Letting go and moving forward… ALL RIGHT !!!

So I am ready to lose the excess - the excess self doubt and fear! It out weighs my fat and stifles my growth! I have realized that by worrying about the external, I have focussed on what I believe I can achieve with the belief that I can achieve little more. I have been denying myself the path of consciousness. I can do both, but this life is about to be more about my mind and my purpose and the external, improved health and some tighter thighs will come as I bloom with life inside. I need some personal care, some personal compassion and I have a desire to both be still and listen and also achieve all that my real me is to achieve. There are no limitations when my mind is free from fear.

So is the weight important? Should I weight myself? Of course. But it does not, does not define me and it will not alter my mind. There are so many more things that are more important for me, but if I were my old OLD weight, surely I would see my weight as being more of a concern. I am blessed with health and to live in a time where I can be inspired by such great minds. I am so happy I have connected with so many great minds on this site. In what other time in history could we communicate with so many from so far away? We are so lucky that technology can be used so well. So I tell you because we are all here to lose some weight, that I lost 2 pounds this month by living happily and fearless of the scale. I exercised pretty moderately. Somedays intensely and others, not at all, but mostly moderately. I enjoyed in moderation everything and did try to eat a good amount of fruits and veggies everyday. I think my spirit feels best when I eat vegetarian/vegan/ raw, but I enjoyed everything when I wanted. I recall being conscious of emotional eating once and it was so funny, I sat down and said I am so emotional and I am going to eat 2 bowls of Krackles…lol Now how emotional is that! I crack myself up! Fearless with food.

The doors are open for change and I am allowing for this New Me to try and discover. At ease.

I wish you all a great weekend. Take care of yourself and thank you for feeling free to share and grow with me. We can do this and it really is in us to live well.

Always, Hugs…….