Jenn

So, I have had one excellent day. In all ways things have gone well and I feel accomplished. But then it is after supper and I feel a little like I could have that little something to munch on even though I am not hungry. The feeling is just there, ya know? And then I see that some idiot is online from my past. Fascinating how you can recall being that fat person way back then and recall the memories of a person who thought that they can treat you like that stand-in while they waited for someone better to come along. Well, here is the thing. I was deserving of respect then (when I was all Romantic Period Hot - largely curvatious and unhealthy) and I am so deserving now! I have to make the correct choice because I am the one who must respect me first! I could go and chow down on something and regret, but that is the old me. I am fresh and full of ways to treat myself like a goddess. Eating because of boredom or loneliness is just a poor option.

I made a simple and nice meal and even had some dessert. That is it. Thank the heavens that I had a balanced diet today (carbs, protein and good fat….lots of small mini meals) because I could actually say no. Sure I said NO WAY AM I GOING TO EAT STUPIDLY after seeing that old mistake, but it was because of the balance through out the day that I could say, I am so glad I have finally got my goals and thoughts together. But this is the thing with me, my moods are entirely dependent on having balance like I said and getting all the nutrients that a proper diet provides. No chemicals or preservatives, just goodness. A great mood. With a poor meal choice, my mood can just as easily be altered. I hear this is not so uncommon.

So today, is one of those days where I toot my horn because I did great!