Jenn

So I wrote a blog, saved it and did not post. Thank goodness. That is not how I feel really. That was then (silly moment of irritation) and this is now. My little ramble….

The truth never needs defending. I am so pleased to have mostly let go of that need to vent and that bogus idea that I can save the world. We have a certain amount of time on this planet and no one knows exactly how long and I will do my best to try and live it peacefully. That is it. What is more important than peace and love? Well self-growth in my eyes does rank up there for sure. Forgiveness, for sure.

I think true connections come from really understanding and sometimes best friends bloom from crazy uncertainty and frustration. I wonder about the first flower that bloomed ever when no human was around to see it. Nevertheless it did and though it likely only lasted a short time with the environmental abuse, it came back stronger and stronger. We humans can take notes from flowers. The flower thing is really from A New Earth which I am reading for the second go. AND I AM ACTUALLY MEDITATING this time. That is my commitment to relaxation and myself.

I am respecting myself lately and seeing the beauty that is internal and external. This IS NOT and will never be negative. We are here at this site because we have treated ourselves with disrespect - feeding ourselves to the point of growing and growing and growing….not the good kind. The time to show ourselves, YES OURSELVES the love is now. We can not look to others to build ourselves up. That is simply unfair. We must love ourselves and share in love, yes or no? I am not great at understanding love, but slowly the snail gets there. And as I read in my current text Anatomy of the Spirit, I learn how important it is to see and heal ourselves and not look outward for that which we want to happen and heal inward. And this was what I needed to read RIGHT WHEN I READ IT…….Think less, act more! (Wish I could take credit for that one, ha!)

I have been looking to David for support to limit my sugar, when it is not his hand that is putting the sugar in me. With him, others or just me, the decision is mine to treat myself well. I know what this means. It is not denial. It is the right amount of food at the right time. Numerous factors affect what we eat, but it always comes down to, “Is this what my body needs and wants?” Sometimes I think I do need that dark Dove chocolate…. but one piece, maybe 2, but never the whole damn box! Fixed myself, I buy the box with 4 chocolates. Not so economical, but I get all I need and want. It is a better choice for me. Plus I want chocolate much less then I use to, so that helps.

I love this site. Old buddies and new, ones I “see” frequently and ones I do not see so much, I think you all are great. We all have different paths and different amounts of time we can spend on the computer. I am thankful for this site and all the positive energy we share. But when there is something that is not happening as we would like it to happen, WHY can’t we do something within our positive abilities and ACT? Wait a minute, *ponders question* ….We can! I forget this sometimes.

I wish Everyone a great day.

ONE MORE thing….. I write about my cat because I love him dearly. Animals, not humans, animals are the only ones who behave 100% of the time with integrity and honesty. Plus, fur, love their loveliness.