Jennifer

Not a great day, though not a horrible one either. Just one of those days where moodiness seemed to prevail. I would like to leave the junk here though. I have to wear a brace for awhile on my knee. That sucks. But what sucks even more is that I felt helpless. David went running all over the place to find one that worked. That is right my fat legs just did not want to fit into anything. So I have felt powerless and moody. Of course I did not make ideal food choices so this is contributing to my crankiness. Honestly though, I have been just fine lately, but so critical of myself and my choices today. I will not be going to my part time job for a couple weeks. This works out for studying anyways. It seemed that by trying to do too much too soon I made things a little worse for the my knee. There is nothing major wrong says the Dr. but I do need to take it easy…. pulled this, crackling rosy cartilage that.   So, I got my little funk out of the way and tomorrow I start fresh. The only thing I will be doing tomorrow is upper body weights (arms and back…. I do these lying down) and abs. I swear I really miss the workouts!!! Some people say they do not like to exercise and for me, it IS MY HAPPY PILL. When I weighed about 225 pounds I made a choice to join a gym (hated being the big girl amongst all those beautiful people) but I ALWAYS felt 100% after a fabulous workout. I am going to give it my all tomorrow…. in body (mini workout), mind (studying) and spirit (meditating….. did not do that earlier today- will do it before bed tonight) I really do not want to spread my gloominess on another day.

Dr. wishes for me to convey on here how we must take care of our knees and go easy on them. Knee replacement is quite common for those who push and push themselves into doing high impact activities. Maybe I should leave tennis for the pros? I just like it and I feel I am actually good at it. Perhaps when I am more fit. I feel like in the last week I have regressed, but I am not going to go down this sad sad pathetic road. Nope. Look out positivity, HERE I COME!

Nipped the grouchiness in the bud….

Now I am going to tell my dear sweet partner how much I love him.

Lots of deep breathing before I go to bed, just to make sure my mind is cool and still before I fall asleep……..

Sweet dreams….

(ALSO…. I saw a cute pic of a yoga girl poster and I decided that I am going to paint a picture of me in my fave yoga position. I have been lacking in the creative department lately and my spirit is suffering from not having that creative outlet. I am excited. I have not painted for a long time.)