Jennifer

Well I have not been consistent with the Intuitive Eating this week as there have been a few high emotions and chaos in our condo-stuff everywhere….

Well mostly it has been due to renovations and some intensity with me not saying what I want.  No I do not want the slightly disgusting granite counter top for the bathroom even though it is right there at Home Depot.  It did not fit and making it fit would be crazy and regretful.  But he wanted to be handy.  And I sure wanted our bathroom ready before mid November, but this is the way it has got to be.  So the custom made tub and sink are a go.  I should have expressed my opinion early, but of course I CAVED (low self esteem) and said ok to the better of the 3 bad choices.  Well it was awful so we wait and David got more of a work out then he had wanted returning the sink.  My bad.  But, all confusion and frustration can come to a beautiful conclusion IF the two minds work, see and feel together….so I found this week.

Weight loss stuff…..No I do not want to put junk food in me unless it is the kind I chose.  Small, delightful, wonderful on occasion and not every day treats.   Wonderful food from the earth most of the time…this is my plan.  I am not trying to over think food too much, yet the dilemma - I WANT CHANGE!

We have gotten pudgy and we both have agreed to live our lives together a little differently.  If this goes well, I shall discuss this more later, I think.  But I am not having the great expectations that I sometimes do have.  We are just going to see how things go.  Communication is sure the key!  Sometimes you need the intensity to get things out in the open.  This week I am thankful for honesty and the perfection of the principle to live in the moment and not in the past.  Have an issue, say things that create tension, BUT BE IN THE BLOODY GREAT MOMENT NOW……  I rocked!  Together, we are rocking!

This week I work on cleaning up my system a bit (mostly whole foods and juice of a lemon each AM and I am thinking green - improving my liver function and getting plenty of vitamin K)

So, I am creating a lifestyle for myself and I am fully aware that things are not going to be all hunky dory every week because things happen..  Now, I try and be a little more respectful of myself and live this life as it was meant to be lived.  Fully.  With beauty.  Respectfully.   Mindfully with Me in mind.  I have gotten into a bit of a multi year funk thinking that I somehow do not deserve to put myself first in my mind.  This nasty mentality has really lowered the meter reading on my confidence.  This is simply not a good way to live.  I want to know what I want and say what I want.  I am woman, here me roar.  Oh yeh, ENERGY!

Other goals too, but that is for me to not share with you here….hehe.  I am just not in that kind of a mood.  ;)  No kissing.  No telling.   A little conservative sometimes, Liberal too on occasion, but I am New Jack City excited everyday!!!  Everyday is a new day to make things memorable and exciting.  I think I like a little world where I can be conscious of what I need for my personal growth and yet still be in a society where people care and take care of each other.

I am really thankful for all my buddies here who have been so wonderful.  I think you all are terrific and I look forward to catching up this weekend.  So tea cheers to Buddyslim and You.  You are beaUtiful and you better not forget it!  Ha!  *fiesty mood*

*hugs*

And to Nikki, I am wearing my lipstick…. hehe

*dances to “It’s My Life” by No Doubt*

PLAN FOR THE WEEK: Lemon water every AM, plenty of water through out the day and be aware of the 10 principles of Intuitive Eating.   Make sure I take my vitamins everyday.