Taking a happy pill

When we learn to deal directly with our complaints and difficulties, romanticized ideas about the spiritual path are no longer meaningful. We see that what is important is to take responsibility for ourselves, and to always be aware of our thoughts, feelings, and actions. - Tarthang Tulku

This seemed to really ring true with me this week.  I have not been doing so so well, but I am working at it.  I think I have been more depressed lately because activity has not been my ‘pill’ of choice and it IS necessary for me.  I am so freaking tired of feeling awful and I am going to shoot myself if I hear a voice in my head that is all boo hoo.   MUST GET OUT OF THIS FUNK!

I know pretending does not work well sometimes, but when I go to see my client I am always a different person.  IT is like I put on this different face and the neat thing is, it has been working.  I have been enjoying that person I am in those moments.  Now why don’t I just hold on to that person?  Ahhh just random thoughts and questions today.

The Plan

Friday: Walking (?) , pilates (50) or Carmen’s DVD

Saturday: Elliptical (30), Hot Yoga (75+)

Sunday: Get Ripped or the gym, not sure

7 Comments so far

  1. harleygirl @ October 17th, 2008

    Are you sure that you and I aren’t the same person? I mean really! That’s where I am at too! Even the part about being a different person. Tim just said to me the other day…how come you are so happy when you talk to one of your sisters-in-law on the phone but with anyone else you are just “blah.” I didn’t realize I was doing it and I didn’t have an explanation. But what I do know is that I am going to be Mrs. Happy…even if I have to force it! LOL!

  2. harleygirl @ October 17th, 2008

    BTW, still loving the Hot Yoga?

  3. Jennifer @ October 17th, 2008

    I love hot yoga, but did not love the instructor so much. But it could be him or another person. I should not let that influence my decision to go :) I AM GOING TO JUST DO IT :)

  4. thrive @ October 17th, 2008

    get that yoga on! and, you know there is science tgo prove that faking happy can make you happier. it;s the act of putting that smile on. i hear ya though, nothing like motion to get you lifted. can u get outside?

  5. thrive @ October 17th, 2008

    can’t wait to hear what you end up doing! hugs

  6. marathoner @ October 17th, 2008

    Girl sometimes you and I are right there….seeing eye to eye. Last night I went to bed in a foul mood even though my poor hubby is ill and I should’ve babied him so, for Heaven’s sakes, he’s not ill everyday!! Be it as it may, I have been in a FUNK as of late and I can’t put my finger on what it is. My only plan of action is to just keep at it until this FUNK passes. I suggest the same for you my dear—sometimes we just have to DO and not let our minds get the better of us…although that is easier said than done!

  7. Jennifer @ October 17th, 2008

    I will update my activity on Monday! Thank you ladies for the super sweet and encouraging comments. :)

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