Jennifer

I finally feel like there is an opening and I can jump or remain still.  It is always a choice.  I am happy to say I am jumping a little, splashing and making little ripples.   But there is still room for more.   I can not say much on this as I am afraid that it will all end.  This is just how I am.  I have been witness to my circular nature and I have the blogs to express this never-seeming-to-learn cycle.  I have been DIZZY at times!  But finally things seem a little different.  Maybe it came when I was more at ease with myself….those few times…lol  I have let go of some of those old beliefs of myself.  Anyways I am today what I want to be, not what I was 30 years ago or even last week!   How can I be 33 and not feel more my age then I did at 18?  What will it take to feel powerful and limitless???

I am at ease FINALLY with this completely insane journey of weight loss.  It has been nuts and in the past and I have felt nuts because of all that it brings.  No talking of this.  Been there, done this!!!  HOW did I discover peace and relaxation with my weight?  And let’s be serious, the turtle progress this time around…  Well it is the absence or near absence of all the sugar I think.  The only time I have had a little sugar has been when I eat out and the amount has been minimal… a little in dressings and dips.  So, I learned that sugar really does affect my body chemistry, my mind, my emotions and my decisions.  The near absence of sugar has helped me to feel whole and peaceful.  -just a couple things I ate out had sugar.

So what does this mean?  Will my mind hold myself back from my life or will I feel brave and do great things?  I AM NOT THE THOUGHT(S) in my head.

I am ……………  what?  really?  whatever, just going with it……