Compassion & Believing
What would a day look like with out scales, sizes, points, calories? Would it look hopeful or like I was feeling out of control? I too have taken up a preoccupation with my size (I have clothes that do not fit, but are perfectly new) and the scale. Well, today I close my eyes to Sparkpeople and the flip flopsey white beast on the floor. *pushes the scale under the couch* Ahh, one has to make an enemy to feel good yes? Well not today. Not usually. No calorie counting at Sparks and no scale! Just being real with myself and focussing on accomplishing some personal goals that are not weight related and believing in my self.
What will believing in myself look like? Will answer later when I am able….
Special thanks for some sweet surprises. When this place is treated as a vessel for giving gifts of thoughtfullness without the expectation of anything, this is one of the best places around. I use to just read blogs regularly (a long time ago, actually) and be inspired in the most interesting places, in peoples minds and hearts, and then I stopped… I had some moments lately of poor intention (in all parts of my life), I was moody with bouncing hormones lately and I was thinking things of others that I should not. Anyways, nothing beats giving a booster to a total stranger with the thought that it might share with them that their words meant something for me. I will enter the land of Buddyslim blogs again, but only when I have that sign inside to do so.
It always works out best when there’s a calling inside and not a need to fill my boredom.
Today: this lotus is a symbol of compassion, for myself. Gentle, gentle, gentle……..
Strength contract is going well….
Hey girlie, I dont comment on all blogs either, just the ones that strike a personal cord in me.
Hey girl,
Good luck with the personal goals-I know you can reach them.
I also rebel against the scale at times–he lives in my closet now lol. I refuse to let a number dictate how I felt I did over the course of my week.
As for the boosters, comments or notes–lord knows I’ve had many that have made me cried cause it reached out and touched my heart. Some have made me laugh–definitely adds a litle joy to my day.
….done procrastinating and please kick my butt if you see me on, lol, I need to finish an assignment TODAY. The goal.
*correction*
Good intentions, poor execution….. I do not think that being correct is necessarily right. David says I am right to not want junk in the house, but how I chose to express myself can be poor. *working on it*
Love your blog Jennifer (always do!!!) and you my friend are the most “gentle, loving” person, and don’t you forget it.
I love the flower, its such a beautiful symbol.
You do whats in your heart Jennifer, do what is “right” for you and I believe you will find answers, strength and so much more!!!
Love you so much
Jane