Jennifer

Somedays it seems that I do not even have the ability to stop myself.  I know why things seemed so easy before, but I want to be that person who lives like a healthy individual in mind and body.  Anyways a lot of things are going well and a few things are not going to so well, so I am taking a couple minutes to reflect today, not half a day or a whole day, and just try and get back to it.

I know the importance of enjoying the food and taking pride in the preparation of the food.  *check*

Keeping active is more important then avoiding all sweets.  *check*

And, what am I struggling with ?  Oh yeh….  WHY WHY WHY, did that get in the way?  Things were going so well.  No matter how much I try and think things will be okay if I just try and let it go, it never goes away.  Maybe it is time to talk to someone.  But you know, then there is The I DO NOT want to make a big deal out of things.  Why can’t my mind let things go?

I was considering weighing in soon and I can not decide.  I guess that is accountability, but how I am living and being is the issue.  More so then the scale.  For so long I just focussed on the weight and then it seemed okay to forget about everything else and there is A LOT of other things.  Could it be that if I stopped being consumed by numbers and “becoming better” and that if I work on the spiritual and mental me, that I might heal the emotional eater in me?  On these blue days I still think I will always struggle with chosing a healthier option for my meals.  I just can’t say that eating a junky breakfast is okay when I know it will just make the emotions worse.  So today I put on my sexy night elf gear and face life.

Just dru id !  

Special goal today:  I will try my very best to not think negative thoughts or say anything that is not productive. Try this one again.  I will do my best to think and say positive and productive words.