Jennifer

I have been doubting myself all my life and of course this also spill into eating.  I have struggled so much with diet and what is right or what is maybe not so ideal for weight loss/health and then finally through the help of a friend and by listening to my inner self with the help of my friend Paul (lol…he feels like a friend now as I listen to his CD every day), I know what is right for me.  Nothing a little light hypnosis won’t cure!  Well it has for me.  *knocks on wood*  Well I am always dramatic and excited about something that is working.  But eating only when hungry, stopping when content and enjoying the foods I want to eat, real food, is just working.  There is a freedom that I have never experienced.  My mind is quiet, at least with food anyways.  I have been searching for a type of wisdom that is outside of me and Paul McKenna helped me to find this strength in me.  I followed his principles before (I can make you thin… kind of laughable just to write the words) but I did not have the tools/book or the CD so I gave up.  His words now spill into me everyday and they will as he suggests, for 2 weeks.  What a change!

This AM I was stressed but it was a different feeling.  I felt it while I prepared some homemade garlic herb foccacia bread topped with Kalamata olives.  Kneading the dough was a good help too…hehe.   And the stress disappeared and the peace came back.   No matter what happens outside of me, I always have the will to find my center, feel me and do what is right for me.  And so each food I eat is an offering of peace and energy and it is savoured of course with out judgement.  It just IS.  And this is something I pray sticks.  It is natural and it is with out bullshit brainwashing.  Still there will always be a part of me that knows that fruit and flax oil are better choices then simple sugar and potato chips.   And the body will crave fat in any form when it needs the helpful fats.   Still when I have those delights, my goal is to treat them as such and not criticize.  Only the body knows what is true.  Says my teaching self to my student self.

It is funny how the fear of the loss of someone special or not losing fat can make you do incredibly stupid things.  Blah! 

“In Buddhism, there is a practice called “Touching the Earth” that can help us realize our wish to generate the energies of love, compassion, joy, and equanimity. During the practice, we touch the Earth deeply six times, surrendering ourselves to the Earth and to our own true nature. We touch the Earth with our forehead, our two legs, and our two hands, so that our mind and body form a perfect whole, allowing us to tanscend our small self. We surrender our pride, notions, fears, resentments, and even our hopes, and enter the world of “things as they are.” Touching the Earth is an effective yogic practice. We return to our own source of wisdom and are no longer separate and apart from our Mother Earth.”

-From Teaching Love, by Thich Nhat Hanh

Just listening to Black Uhuru’s Party Next Door.   Nothing feels as sexy as music that just makes you move with seemingly no effort.  Fun.