Jennifer

I am REALLY glad I am not weighing in tomorrow.  I gave myself a couple weeks before doing so again.  Yah!

Well we did the extraordinary and we just went out to a club and had fun for no reason other then FUN.  There was not even any kind of a performance or Bif…lol   See David kind of dared me but it was not much of a dare really.  I just did not want to have another boring night of the same old same old.   Here I was showering, putting my makeup on and drinking our best red wine… it was a true occasion!  lol

Not so much dancing but a lot of playing pool so that was fun.  And we met a new couple soon after we started playing our game of pool.   It’s so funny because I am sure people know what it’s like to wait for someone to call when they have given their number, well as a couple we are feeling the same thing.  Will they call and maybe sometime we can get together and play Settlers of Catan?  Boy o boy though, this woman was so lacking in self esteem.  Could it have been the alcohol?  I think all know that just brings out the truth of one’s feelings.  *sigh*  She was absolute JOY and fun and silly, but sad too.  Nothing like a parent to tell ya you are fat over and over.  Well this came out of her towards the end of the night (drunk) and it did not even put any downer on the night.  It was all just that good.  Who doesn’t have issues?  The point is we are all at different places and no matter what, we are all beautiful.  Even if a leg is burned and scared (hers is) or she feels a little self conscious to take off her sweater as she feels fat (been there but last night this was her too) 0r one just does not feel smart (yep!)) or someone just does not feel healthy (YES)…… we as woman are still beautiful works in progress.  And any step in the right direction at any speed is still living one’s best life I think.  Sometimes all I can seem to take is baby steps, but it’s something anyways.

So, MUST MUST MUST get back to the program a bit more.  The thing about doing Paul McKenna’s program is that it does not seem like effort and so it quickly can leave one’s thought and though it’s slight in effort, it is huge in results.  Still you have to follow the plan even if it’s completely logical - it’s how healthy weight people eat for goodness sake!  Because we did not expect to go out yesterday I missed listening to the CD.  Also a little too quick to eat late last night (martini’s will do this! )   So, back to the program and no regrets!  It was not just last night.  I have been slipping  a little with personal life stuff.  If there is one thing we all know, this part of our journey takes effort.  I slacked, but I am back to the Golden Rules -  Eat when hungry, eat what you want (I like healthy food most often, thank goodness), eat with awareness and enjoy and stop eating when full.  Also need to listen to the CD everyday and maybe play with some of the techniques in the book. 

MUST enjoy……………………. yummy, MANGO….. heaven in a bowl and the fragrant perfection of bergamot in my Earl Grey tea…  And the body is saying, protein today.

“Give me some protein.”

“You’re the boss!”