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Constipation

If you do not have a problem with constipation, then great.  But anyone who has a problem knows how uncomfortable it is and dealing is ESSENTIAL - both for your sanity/comfort and for your health.  I write this here because it has come to my attention that a number of people are having issues.  I have to work very hard to be regular and happy too.  I also think that Dr. Oz who has been on Oprah is awesome.  Though I have not read his book(s) he was brilliant when doing the poop talks on her show and so I can only assume the books are fantastic!

The purpose here is to help people who are stuck.   Happiness is the goal.  Somethings might be worth a try and then some will say, life is not worth living without that X-food or beverage or whatever.  We must enjoy and find the balance for our unique selves.   Usually the smallest changes can help.  Also, I come from a natural means of healing though in my life I am very much a middle ground thinker.  I am not of the allopathic vs. homeopathic camp.  There are good things to be taken from both schools.  I clearly think we are the sailors of our ships and our health though. 

What I know causes constipation for me and others things that can cause constipation:

-heavy meals - slows digestion

-lack of exercise

-inability to digest bread and dairy and prolonged consumption can even make it worse - good to have a varied diet. Plain active bacteria yogurt is better then milk.  I kid you not and I am getting use to it, but instead of milks, more and more I am adding yogurt and a little water or some kind of milk to my cereals.  I add different things to make it taste good like raisins, cut prunes, seeds, nuts, pineapple, ground flax or hemp seed, etc.).  I am even starting to prefer it and the results, though I had to convince myself it was good for me at first.  Actually I believe early on there was no milk of any kind in the house, so I tried it.  It grew on me….  :) 

-early intake of cow’s milk  (I share with you now, I have been constipated for the majority of my life and this is one of the reasons I chose to study Natural Nutrition.  Also intersting, babies who are breast fed ted to have less digestive issues.) 

-Early inappropriate foods and continued abuse of our guts creates a system that may not be able to function well.  Luckily our bodies are pretty forgiving.  A book I recommend to anyone who has digestive issues is Eating Alive by Dr. Matsen.  It is written in a fun way, but the information is serious and helpful.   MORE IMPORTANT THEN FOOD COMBINING IS CHEWING WELL!  :)

-chocolate, especially when combined with nuts - my weakness…. *sigh*

-constinuous meals and snacks that do not adhere to the principles of food combining - especially large amounts of meat that because all meats have a significant amount of protein and most have a moderate-high fat content, it really slows digestion and when mixed with carbs slows it down even further and may create fermentation in some individuals.  (yeast problems?   Nutrition, nutrition, nutrition….)

-a lot of fluids with meats (diluting hydrochloric acid -HCl) or not enough fluids with high fiber foods.  HCl in our stomach decreases with age.

 -impropper digeston beginning with not enough chewing - food should be a paste BEFORE swallowing, mixing as much saliva as possible. (25-50 times, may seem tedious, but it is your health!) This begins carbohydrate-sugar digestion and this is very important in not welcoming fermentation.

-high fat diet - fats slow down digestion more then carbs (fast) or protein (about 4-6 hours to digest)

-tea and coffee as they act as diuretcs (Though caffeine can also stimulate some people’s digestion. ??? - Still it is more diuretic I think.) 

-many medications (Tylenol, some heart and depression medications, … so many)

 -calcium without magnesium, and iron supplements

-aluminum (yikes - get that out of the diet or certainly reduce! Aluminum foil that comes into contact with food, pots/pans, antipersperants/deodorants,baking powders, bleached flour, processed cheese, antacids, breathing in dust when sanding from aluminum oxide sandpaper, beverages from aluminum cans)

-starchy fruit like bananas and some sources say cherries (though some say the opposite for both).  We are unique. 

-avoid tea with meal or high protein meals. The tea acids can toughen the protein and slow digestion  (I do like my tea….)

-avoid intense exercise, sleeping, bathing or walking around a lot after eat a meal. Right. *rolls eyes* Anyways, these all interfer with the bodies ability to digest propperly because blood is moved away from the middle of the body. Still I think if one is chewing well and not mixing huge amounts of fluid, one should be able to LIVE after eating….lol

-stopping smoking as nicotine can have a laxative effect.

-VARIOUS health problems

 -prolonged sress

-change in hormones

-pregnancy

-traveling

WHAT HELPS….The goal is to speed up digestion. Not decrease the ability of the body to absorb, but to allow the body to DO IT’S JOB! -digest, absorb and elliminate!

 -small meals are better

-limit sweets

-regular and small amounts of water over the course of the day. The standard 6-8 glasses is usually a good start. But water is individual and based on activity, climate, temperature, body weight etc. What is right for one, may not be right for another.

 -not mixing continual high carb and big protein meals or at least keeping the portions smaller. -limit breads if you think you might have problem digesting. NOT forever, but just for a month or so. Add back slowly. I find open faced sandwiches to be easily digested.  Though for awhile I am avoiding wheat.-limit cow’s milk/dairy except low fat quality yogurt (avoid thickeners) - get the real stuff. Ingredients should include milk and bacteria. NOTHING else. Fat free yogurts usually have thickeners. The last thing one needs is cornstarch and caragenum gum plugging you up  - yuck!

-add a good acidophilous supplement to aid in digestion or eat that yogurt

-magnesium rich foods and some take a supplement

-allow at least 3 hours though many sites and sources say 4-6 hours to digest meats before eating sugary foods and fruits (this is why small meals are better - less time to digest)

-eat fruits usually alone or with foods that have good bacteria (yogurt, kefir). Watch portions.  I semi adhere to this, but mostly I just listen to what is working with my body and what is not.

-pineapple and papaya have natural digestive enzymes so they can be eaten with anything. Chew well as with all food.

-low fat diet, but chose quality EFA foods (nuts, seeds, salmon, avocados, hemp seeds, nut butters) -some say grinding your own flaxseeds, though others find it can cause constipation.  (Not enough water maybe?) I am not sure about this, but everyone is certainly different. Still I think other factors cause constipation, not likely flax.  Most sources will say flax HELPS digestion.

-avoid eating fruit after a meal and also desserts. Save for another time? :) This is hard for me.  For those who have slow digestion, excess sugar is just bad news when residing with the slow and perhaps poorly digesting protein.  Irritable?  Yeasty?  Sorry, had to just put it out there. 

 -it is said that hard foods (require a lot of chewing) are better then huge amounts of liquids like shakes and soups. Again, I think variety and aiming for a less watered down day is ideal.  But, individual.

-high scratchy fiber foods can cause irritation/inflammation in the intestines so best not to overdo it. Eat a variety of different kinds of fiber rich foods and psyllium once in awhile can be helpful. Just do not cook with it, YUCK.  I ruined what would have been some good muffins cooking with psyllium… *rolls eyes*

-prunes, potatoes, carrot juice, apples, beets, vitamin C rich foods (tomatoes, potatoes, lemons, strawberries), lentils, chickpeas, portioned whole grains and start smaller (1/2 c)…. many other high fiber foods too.  A varied diet, high in fruits and vegetables with plenty of fiber and one’s appropriate amount of fluid is important.

-de-stress, yoga, pilates, regular exercise (In particular Hatha yoga can help the digestive system.)

-massage stomach, circular and pressing downward as one lays down or stands

I do not agree with Wikepedia’s suggestion that prolonged use of laxatives is okay. In fact it IS NOT! Best to deal with what is the cause of the problem then to continue a life style that is likely the main culprit. Still if one has a healthy life style and is still having problems then it is best to look at ways to deal. For those who are really suffering and have looked at everything, some substances are better then others. But seek medical advice!!! There are physical reasons one could having problems but in our current society of changing nutrition and stress (environmental and mental), it is likely that we can help ourselves with even slight changes in lifestyle.  THAT WITHOUT SAYING, I have had older clients (me as a caregiver) who have needed their laxatives.  Certainly quality of life  is vital. THESE are ideas and suggestions for those who struggle.  There are not so many ‘for sures’.  But good digestion is key in preventing many illnesses.  What can we do today to improve our digestion even a little?  Pick and choose from above and do your own research.   There is no clear idea of what is the ‘right’ amount or frequency for bowel movements (so my doctor said recently), but comfort is essential.  Sometimes the poofiness in the middle is a sign that digestion is a little or a lot poor.   Happy and smart eating and pooping!  ;) If you know something that works in dealing with the problem, please share as you could be helping someone.  Thanks.My comments on this:  Chocolate, dairy and wheat I think has really done a number on me lately (yes, let’s blame the food, not!) and so I am doing a little tweaking of my diet.  Back to nature a little more…whole foods,….75% of the time?  Oh I think I can do that. 

The Big Picture

I listened to the little voice today and it lead me to some wise blogs.  I learned so much that I must share.  I do not want to lose site of two important things.

1. Sometimes we need to step back and look at The Bigger Picture.  What do we want for ourselves?  The time has come for me to toughen up a little, stop acting like a child who just wants and wants and mindlessly indulges.  I want something and my choices now have to reflect that future image.  And so the bigger future and smaller me picture helps me to re-focus.  This week I do not deny as much as I really ask myself if I REALLY WANT it and will ENJOY it as much as I will enjoy that future me I have in my mind.   And yes it is a realistic one.  It’s even more realistic then the one my doctor seems to think is okay.  After all, I know my body.

2. Our choices now can make us sad and moody OR they can help us to feel good about ourselves.  We Choose Happiness with every little choice.  Happiness is not something that happens to others and boo hoo.  Sure things can be tough, but every moment we have an opportunity to do something well or better.  Tis a choice!  Happiness!!  This week I make a choice to eat more whole foods.  This is for my well being and happiness.  Must leave out the wheat for awhile too.

This is my guide for the week.  Intuitive Eating is another guide, but if I do not follow the principles of The Bigger Picture and Choices For Happiness, then I might not see anything at all.  These ideas are immersed in Intuitive Eating, but I needed to see it from the human experience.  I have been walking blindly, but thanks to a wise voice in my head that I actually listened to (”go read this ladies older blogs”), I have some guidance and can see things again.

Must give thanks on this Sunday to a lady here named Stacey.  She has much to do in her life and yet she shares here and inspires.  Thank you to her and Buddyslim.

 

This week if I have had a good week (based on intuitive eating, these 2 principles stated here and general feeling of peacefullness), then I will have motivation that continues for a long time.  I apparently am getting some gift from David too.  I said I need something as I was desperate to motivate myself.  Now a gift.  But I wanted to find that internal motivation and in my search I found it.  Brilliance is everywhere.  Sometimes it just takes me bending over to lift a rock to unvail a naturally radiant seeking worm dancing like Stevie Wonder.  (Just feel like listening to Stevie Wonder for some reason.)  Other times it just takes me listening to the voice.  The voice in my head that is more wise then the fear and the sadness that holds me back.

Turn over a new leaf or a rock….

International Rock-Flipping Day 

Have a great day everyone. ;)

Serotonin/The Plan

So I found a fantastic new show (new to me) and I love that it is only 20 some minutes to watch one episode and yet it is nearly 20 minutes of smiling and laughing and this feels so wonderful.   Increased SEROTONIN !!!

The Big Bang Theory is so fantastic!!!  I laughed my behind off.  ;)

It is early to talk about my experience with St. John’s Wort, but I like it.  I do not take it early in the day because I would feel tired all day.  But I take it minimally and I feel comfortable starting out small.  I sleep so well and wake up refreshed.  I am not constipated at all THANK GOODNESS.  What I have found is that I have had a decreased desire to emotionally eat or eat out of boredom.  I feel more content to just be still.  I was feeling a little OCD before, but I feel good.  It is too bad that it interferes with the birth control pill because it could potentially be helpful for people who experience mild to moderate depression.  It is so awesome to have not cried this weekend and truly, that says something.  It was a good weekend and many things have increase my serotonin.

After my fasting blood test yesterday I was so hungry and I ate and ate yesterday.  Seriously I rarely go 14 hours with out eating.  I kind of felt like I might faint, but did not.  YAH.  I am not judging what I ate or how much, but I did eat a lot and I know this because I felt FULL.  Not sure how many  calories or points and I am good with this.   So I am maintaining and my spirits are good.  Though this week I would like to see some progress (any) because I finally feel a little better.  Energy is not optimum, but still it is time.

Love the new tub and more and more baths with candles……..

Whole grains (brown rice, quinoa, etc.), fish, fruits and vegetables, water, good healthy fats (salmon oil, hemp seeds, flax, nuts and seeds) vitamins, treats in moderation and light-moderate exercise (6/7 days).   David and I have decided no eating out until the end of the week.  No sugary desserts and instead we are chosing fruit.  I know this is not really a principle that Intuitive Eating believes in, but my sweetie suggested it (not me who usually says such things), so I think he has been feeling a bit like he wants to see changes for himself.  It will be good for both of us.   I also will be continuing to respect my full feeling……

Have a wonderful week Buddies!  Chamomile tea cheers.  *clink*

Food and Intimacy

This is a blog for my buddies.  And normally I would not write about such things here, but I feel lost.  If you are not a buddy or a member of this site, then you are disrespecting my space to grow and learn by reading this highly personal blog.  But who am I kidding, if this spew helps anyone, well then I am thankful for that annoying desire within me to share…haha ;)   We are after all here to share.  I write this because I need to share with my buddies instead of writing all cryptic like.  This is me all naked and right now that feels very scary!  But I would not be me if I did not feel scared and then just jump. Why not?  Well now you can stop or read on.  Cheers!  :)

 

What is the advantage of being over weight? (Thank you Jo for raising this important question.)

Answer: a sense of security.

 

Hmmmm….. that is a tough one but since getting real, I think some next steps can be taken.

 

Most of who I am seems to want to lose weight, so why that occasional binge and the careless eating that has set me back what feels like a lot?   I would just need a week or two to really feel good again but it starts always in the moment and I have not been doing so well with this.

 

I know I should not be thinking about a deadline and making that my goal but I am.  It is about 4 weeks until I have my physical and I am worried.  I am being such a dork.  But dreams and thoughts are really getting to me.  And this stress is affecting me in a variety of unhealthy and unproductive ways.  I just do not know what to do.  I love the ideas that support wellness and soften the negativity behind ideas that can only lead to eating issues.  But I want to lose and I do not feel I can do it unless I really stay focused.  I know there are some who are following the Intuitive Eating philosophy but I seem to like a little more structure.  And yet if I tell myself no, I want.  So in this way Intuitive Eating rocks my socks. 

 

All I can think is this, will tonight (my hot yoga class) start me on a path towards loving me?  I really feel like I have been this trash can lately and the effects are evident.  And it is not at all surprising that I am more sad and apathetic.  Making any decision seems to be about the toughest thing. 

 

I guess I was vague yesterday.  Why should I care what people think of me?  Why not lay it all out there?  Well I mentioned that I am trying to manipulate my thinking.  Why is it that couples sometimes just seem to find so much pleasure in eating???  What I have wondered is why can’t David and I be creative and resist the junk food and treats and  find something else productive and creative to do?  That feeling when I am resisting is not altogether a tough thing.  In fact my secret I reveal here is that it is some what of a turn on.  By resisting poor food choices (junk) I actually feel like I am one sexy creature (I do not feel this, so I guess we could call it a fantasy).  I know I will come to be that healthy me by resisting the junk.  Now I know it is not an Intuitive Eating thing, but it really helps to stay more focused.  So could RESISTING JUNK FOOD be my fetish?  I have tried to make it so.  This is what I mean by manipulating my thinking. David says maybe it is a form of benign masticism and I say it is my way of teaching myself to not want the unnecessary and benefiting in a very healthy way….  But I love his mind.   Normally what I would do is just eat and eat when stressed, but why not resist (and for me this seems sexual because in doing so I feel sexier) and feel the tension become bliss?

 

Why do I feel the need to do this?  I struggle with the internal feeling and thought that sex might cause me to have unhealthy sexual organs.  This is my insight.  I believe that my mind has been holding onto this thought and I eat to protect myself.  Messed up and I know.  I know intellectually and physiologically that sex is good for the body and excess food is toxic.   SO, why can’t I stand up or lay down and use that need to resist to get healthy with my sweetie (who also wants to lose a bit of weight) instead of eating ourselves into our graves.  And this is only slightly melodramatic really.  I think it is vital that I address my unhealthy thoughts towards sex.  I also want to lose weight.  The two go hand in hand.

 

This is where I am at.  I am not at all comfortable with being okay to eat when I am not hungry.  It is just so old.  I also want to address my issues with intimacy and they are so crazily linked to food.  I want to be my healthiest in mind, body and spirit and it is time to get real !!!

 

Thank you for reading.  I am normally quite conservative with this, but it just has been too much to hold in.  I just have to say though, with regards to the wonderful guy I found 4 years ago, I am so lucky to have someone who just wants me to be happy and is so in this for the long term.  I love him so much and in those tough times and then coming out of it, you really see how incredibly strong two is instead of a distant one and one.  Two do not even have to try to be distant as it can just happen.  I mean it does not have to be conscious and it sure can happen where people just forget to communicate.  I feel blessed that I can tell David anything and he never judges me.  I love him so much.

If I could tonight at yoga I would just sweat all this bullshit out of me…. hehe.  Well I will try.  But mostly I know that growing is slow.

I FORGOT what day it was yesterday!

So, I did not make it to the hot yoga class as it was 4 years for my partner and myself.

David walked in and had flowers and kale (hehe) in hand and a little bag with a present inside.  It was all such a surprise!  He knew I was excited with the class.  In fact I had my bag and mat ready to go (even underwear and clothes for after).  But there was no way!  I wanted to spend the night with my sweetie.  I had just made a hearty soup for supper. I am always thrilled that a meal is prepared for the next day.

Anyways because it was a special day we decided on Japanese for supper.  We started with sushi and soup and then shared an entree.  They asked us if it was a special day and we said it was our 4th year.  Well at the end of the meal (SO SMART to share the meal) they surprised us with a small piece of the most unique lemon pie with a sparkler.  It was hardly yellow so the hit of lemon was a real treat.  It was all a great evening.

I remembered my goals from last week and the commitment I made to a buddy this week and I realized that I did great and am doing pretty fine.  It has been most helpful to really get the activity in.  Lots of pilates, walking etc.  I am looking forward to sweating it up on Wednesday.  I had a sore wrist last week so no weights, but this week I add weights and yoga.

This week if I/we do not adhere to Our goal (David’s and mine) then I will express what I want to accomplish.  But it really is personal.  I just really want to change how we think and live amongst food so, this is a great threat, a fun threat.  No offense, but I really do not want to share my quarky mind.   Some things should stay in the house, hey?  :)  My question is to anyone who might read this, have you ever tried to manipulate your thinking with regards to food?  Well that is all I will say.  It is not so much in line with Intuitive Eating, but I am REALLY trying to be aware of OUR relationship with food.  I really am thankful for all that we share.

Have a great week everyone! ;)

Intuitive Eating…

FIRST: Thank you to my buddies who were there for me at various times.  You are so fantastic !!!

Second: Intuitive Eating -  This is truly the only way for me!  That without saying, I have needed to just keep in mind points because I am either not eating enough or I eat too much later in the day and that DOES NOT work….lol  As we know.  So I am trying to reject the extreme diet mentality, but I am still trying to be aware, of course.

This is no excuse, but someone in my family has a very serious health condition and I did EE (emotionally eat) this week. I was not allowed to call this person because I was not suppose to know, but things are Out now and I can communicate, thank goodness.  Things are going to be tough, but I believe things will be ok.  I have to believe!

Anyways, I knew I was doing it (EE) and I just did it.  Well I was at least with the food when I was doing it.  Half way through what ever I was eating (snacking foods or left overs, I can not actually recall as it was days ago) I do remember that I made myself slow down and that was good.  I have figured it out, if I can actually BE WITH THE FOOD in those moments, it does not seem like the old EE at all.  So this is improvement.  And then this week, I did very well, so all in all a good week with the food.

I have been honoring my hunger for the most part and this is so empowering.   When I was out with my client I had my lunch and she had hers.  I was so satisfied with my sushi I did not feel like I needed another thing.  She told me she bought me one of those cookies from Subway and I felt like I could have a taste and so I took of a piece for the taste, but that was satisfying enough.  I was full.  I respected my fullness!!  Food is not the enemy.  Not even the choice I made to eat a few plus a few more chocolates yesterday was evil or sinful.  It was what it was.  Thank goodness.  I was not good this week and I was not bad.  I just enjoyed life, moved as much as I could and feel content.  Have I lost, I do not know.  But my head is on straight and I am ready to have another great week.

This week, because I have been doing pretty well with the top 6 of the 10 Principles of Intuitive Eating, this week I kind of pay a bit more attention the the last 4.  I have kept them in mind, but I do find it a little consuming, overwhelming and just unnecessary to do it all, so to speak.  I naturally did what I could and now, I can work on those things I struggled a little with and move on to being a little more attentively with the others.  All good here my buddies.

THIS WEEK I learned that I can sit on my butt and not axiously move to the kitchen because I do not like where my head is at.  It can happen.  I also learned and is not diet related, but I learned that this life is so precious and in an instant EVERYTHING can change, so it is good to make each moment count.  It is so important to make ammends and do now what you in the past put off.

10 Principles of Intuitive Eating

1.  Reject the diet mentality - pretty close though I think points are ingrained and helpful for eating enough and then not going over board. It is a tool.

2.  Honor your hunger- no starving, lol, like I have never done this anyways.  When hungry I did just eat something little to tide me over.

3.  Make peace with your food - a little EE, but I feel good with this, but will still be aware.

4.  Challenge the food police - no bad foods.  I started to see carbs as something to avoid just for awhile and then I realized this would only make me stupid, LITERALLY.  So I checked that reality and enjoyed moderately.

5.  Respect your fullness - did VERY well with this.  No discomfort this week.  Though I was pleasantly full after the mole sauce, chicken and beans at Labamba!  Wow… pumpkin seed mole sauce - YUM!

6.  Discover the satisfaction factor - a little of anything that I desired in the moment, savoring slowly, was simply the only way to live.  Pleasure and moderation.  Should have bought better quality chocolates yesterday and had a little less.  But all is good.  No regrets, but rather lessons to learn from.

7.  Honor your feelings without using food - work on to be more consistent

8.  Respect your body - continue……..

9.  Exercise - feel the difference  — keep it up!  I did a lot of walking this week and pilates.  Some pain prevented me from doing certain activities, but that is life.  I did what I could and I am happy about this.  I was not so happy in some of the moments when I felt like I could not do this or that.  But I GOT OVER IT and did not dwell for too long…hehe

10. Honor your health  - my motto that is old, but some how I always must carry it in my pocket like a pebble for those times when it does not seem to be important.

The most important thing for me to remember and this is an Intuitive Eating philosophy, “you will not get a nutrient deficiency or weight gain from one snack, one meal, or one day of eating.  It’s what you eat consistently over time that matters, progress not perfection is what counts.”

Hello beaUtiful !

I feel stubborn.

It has been a tough week and I am not here to complain.  I am here to think about my goals which have not changed over the course of the last little while.  I know how I must train myself to think and feel.  Points have worked for so long, but relaxing with food and weight is a nice way to be.  No it has not been all rosy, but I sure am not going to let myself get worked up about things only to try something different.  I am giving this a real go and my reward shall be peace and self love.  A tall order, but like I said, stubborn is me.

There are some things that rub me the wrong way, but I will not let these Things derail me from what I know is a good philosophy for me.  I know the principles of Intuitive Eating and The Zen of Eating are guides that allow me to achieve a peacefulness with myself.

I have discovered activity again like I was doing before the knee issues and I love it.  Really, there is nothing better then feeling strong and healthy.  Cardio is really something I missed and I am kicking it up a notch.  Just a little notch.  My booty has missed the good movement. ;)  So this weeks goals, consistent activity!

I wish you all a great week.  You can do it!  Do it for yourself, beaUtiful !!!

*hugs*

I feel different.

The journaling has been good. But what I am most impressed with is how my mind has calmed a little. I have been really anxious about the whole dieting mentality and hence this has lead me to open my eyes to new things (The Book, the only book, Intuitive Eating and the Joy of Silence). I am often racked with all kinds of hormones this time of the month, but this time when I wanted salt and chocolate I went with it. BUT I AM EATING WITH TRUE AWARENESS AND ACCEPTANCE. It is not the irresponsible eating that we call binge eating. Rather it is healthier view of food and myself where I did not judge the food or try to hide myself. Truly my emotions change like the wind, but this moment has been coming. Anything worth having comes with a preliminary hell. I will keep doing what I know is correct for my form and for my mind. That which is Beyond me is a comfort because I do not need to know the plan. I just need to do what I know is True. These are the challenges I face. I know I have to do things and change is always scary.

My goal this week is to NOT hide behind food or use food to cause me to feel like a failure. This week I feel Everything. I have learned so much about myself by being present with the Silence and the emotions of loneliness and I could not have asked for a better teacher then the stillness of the moment. Also, I need to get my own copy of Intuitive Eating so I can mark it up.

I really enjoyed watching all the Olympics this weekend. There is a quality with in each athlete that is truly magical. Just one example, but watching that woman from Romania (Constantina Tomescu-Dita) just run and run and press on and on was truly inspiring. How is it that some have that drive and others just do not? Not everyone has great roots to inspire this strength, so what is it? Where does this belief in oneself come from? How does one become a believer in oneself? Just some thoughts I am having right now……..

Ok, my stomach is telling me it is breakfast time….

Before I go, the scale says a gain, but this is so far from the truth. GEORGE! My body is so different and this is due to exercise….walking and strength training. I am so thankful for all that my body does. I will do my best to respect it so that it might continue to provide me with this much loved movement. I am sending out a big thank you to my physical body! *THANK YOU*

Have a great week everyone! I will be back next Sunday. (I have updated my profile too.)

3 days of journaling my emotions and food

I just feel somewhat lost today. I really really wish to lose these last few. And that is why I joined the team - motivation. But I can not find that which is only located from within. Well this realization is tough, because like I said, I feel lost. Team spirit detests this kind of thought. But this is me. I do not fit in ANYWHERE.

This diet that I new was crap really went out the window last night and thank goodness for this. I really enjoyed the great outdoors and some regular, fun, fast food last night. I refuse to think it was BAD…. I have no room for negativity as I need to find the Jenn who is moderate, really moderate. I know that extreme dieting is not good and I do not know what I was thinking doing it…. so ridiculous when I know all that is important is good health and it IS NOT achieved with radical diets, no matter how much I tweak it…lol Intuitive eating and The Zen of Eating are great guides. But I started to be anxious about goal not reaching my goal. I think lately I have been letting go a little and fear crept in. Like it would be the worst thing in the world to not diet?!? What if I just ate well, exercise, slept and dealt with all things stressful in a helpful way? What if I did not use my health issues as the reason to lose weight? What if I calmed the heck down and ENJOYED THE FREAKING MOMENT….. ha! :)

I have come to some new conclusions about food and health (through my own thinking and some reading). It is not so much what we eat that will keep us healthy, but it is what state our mind is in when we are eating and how we are eating. Real food is of course ideal, but stressfully eating healthy food and putting crazy pressure on our bodies is not a way to achieve optimum health. Perhaps it is this desire for peace within that is hindering me. I am just trying to hard, when I just need to stop. Smell, appreciate, enjoy…

Geocaching has actually brought me to a greater understanding of how I eat. Sometimes lately we have been out and about looking for treasure, but the goal did not distract us from the beauty of nature, the Moment. A couple times I have really just enjoyed where I was at, but then other times when we were out and about it was rushed, it was dark and we were hungry and moody. So, these are not the conditions to be enjoying an experience. And so back to diet and food…. One just has to be with them self and the food and the breath and the chewing. Before that food goes into my mouth I am going to consciously be aware of my mood, my state of mind, my emotions….my food. This is not something I have been able to maintain for any length of time…a journal for my emotions and food. YEh that requires me to get real with what usually wished to be stuffed down and down and down….. But I am taking a small notebook and I am going to write about my emotional connection to food for just 3 days. I have no plans. I do not know if I will continue or if I will give up. Like I so often feel I give up on everything! But 3 DAYS. I know George is coming and these emotions are somewhat connected to his visit, but I am tired of the constant BLAME game. Tis time to get real and be at ease because there is too much goodness to miss. Oh yeh, no dieting… just eating reasonably for my hunger.

I am cleaning the entire condo today because things have gotten forgotten around here with us being so adventurous. Well I look forward to even the mundane today. Laundry, vacuuming and gathering some items for Good Will. The rain is cheering up my herbs and I too feel so much better for getting this all off my chest. This is me, enjoying the everyday. Ok, I am smiling now. :)
This is still a nice place to be when I remember that this blogging space is mine.

As for Buddyslim, we are a neat little community that goes through a lot sometimes. I wish everyone the best and I hope that you are creatively seeing a way that suites your mind, your body and your spirit.

*wink*

Goals in Review

Respect myself - balance, portions, nutrition, activity - Very nicely done, and the best thing was I have been able to get in some decent strength training, THANK goodness!! Kicked up the activity level! Dropped soy for awhile to see if I can increase my metabolism. I am not picking on soy, but it is likely not so good for those who have issues with the thyroids. I have heard this and read this countless times, but I thought I would be positive. Anyways, once in awhile perhaps, but not this week. Well I ate too much pizza last night, so yesterday was my free day. I mean seriously what a mistake. Too much and blobs of white bread and cheese. When pizza is good it is out of this world, but when it is blah, well it is time to dish out more salad and save those calories/points for something better and tastier I think. Here is me yesterday “I am losing blood, I am losing blood, I think I need loads of some food in me. Ahh I THOUGHT I was going to die. I am good now!!” *wipes sweat from my forehead & rolls eyes* Peanut butter cookies anyone? Nope, no more for me! My free day was yesterday. *commits*

Faith in myself - THIS IS HUGE and takes time. Little by little…… No great accomplishments, but little successes. Will be a little more mindful of this.

Give thanks before and after meals and snacks - sometimes I missed, but mostly I remembered especially when I ate at home. This is a good way to eat and I found it slowed me down and made me appreciate each bite.

Savor slowly - Just a great start to the digestion process and I eat smaller amounts and am much more satisfied. When I eat too too fast, it’s like, Did I Just Eat??? Feels like not. So like many things, slower is better.

Record - Did this and this made me more mindful and accountable.

Feed my actual hunger - I felt the hunger and fed it usually well. Ate late once and then had indigestion as I tried to sleep. duh! And ate too much pizza last night. Listen, listen listen to the body. “I know, I know….”

Find a little time in each day to relax and possibly laugh my behind off - must not take life too too seriously! Watched more comedy this week as a prescription really and it was great - Love Guru and numerous older comedies (Friends, Fraiser, Seinfeld, Roseanne) I have enough texts, self help books and one fiction novel on the go… no more room for books…lol At least at this time. While it poured rain last night David and I watched “Where the heart is”. I LOVE THIS MOVIE and recommend it. * * * * * * /6 *’s !!! Funny, quirky, sad, scary, romantic, cute, inspirational, intelligent……. It had it all. There was even blood for those who like that, but it was so sad….. Ahhh, I am such a weepy girl. It even got to David and that warmed my heart even more.

Author of the Zen of Eating in an interview - http://www.5medicines.com/zendiet.htm

Oh and Debbie, I am doing an InterLibrary loan and hopefully the library will be able to get the book. :) I am curious about it. Do not expect it anytime soon though.

*down one!

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