Jennifer

So I want to write something quick and yet do not know what to say. It feels like I am just now talking to a new friend I have not seen in awhile. What to say?

I have been frustrated and I do not want sympathy, please! But just wanted to share that I injured my knee again, same thing and they will not do anything for it, they can’t they say. SO I NEED TO BE CAREFUL! No I was not even doing a sport, I was climbing up one very high step of a bleacher to watch a baseball game and just twisted it wrong. Not only that, instead of resting it properly I went a little hard with life when I should have just sat on my butt for awhile. So yesterday was a sit on my butt day drugged out on some most pleasant medication that actually helped me to keep my behind glued to the couch and bed. Seriously I felt drunk for much of the day. It feels so much better today. BUT I KNOW I MUST BE CAREFUL.

I have had some other health issues that have lead me to need to do a bit of a cleanse. Nasty cravings!! I am using food and as much activity as I can to cleanse/detox and get better. One way to really detox is to sweat a lot and work the big muscles (I can not work my quads…. *tear, tear*). Well since I am trying to take it easy with any kind of impact, this is tough. I am looking to the Wildcat activity chart and giving it my all, with in reason. Seriously I have been slacking and it is time to work on my strength and flexibility a little. Could I have re-injured myself because I have let certain activities fall from my routine? Perhaps. Could be just an old injury (my Mom has the same thing I just found out - weird!). Matters not now. Now it is time to get at it and make it better.

Study, workout, read blogs at lunch time, study and go to book club tonight. Missed Canadian Idol last night. Yes I am watching it and loving it like the older gal I am. I hear from some young people that it is so yesterday……lol Well I guess I never use to watch it, but now it is a part of my week. I should be able to see it soon. *grins*

So have a great week everyone! It is time for a loss

Not a great day, though not a horrible one either. Just one of those days where moodiness seemed to prevail. I would like to leave the junk here though. I have to wear a brace for awhile on my knee. That sucks. But what sucks even more is that I felt helpless. David went running all over the place to find one that worked. That is right my fat legs just did not want to fit into anything. So I have felt powerless and moody. Of course I did not make ideal food choices so this is contributing to my crankiness. Honestly though, I have been just fine lately, but so critical of myself and my choices today. I will not be going to my part time job for a couple weeks. This works out for studying anyways. It seemed that by trying to do too much too soon I made things a little worse for the my knee. There is nothing major wrong says the Dr. but I do need to take it easy…. pulled this, crackling rosy cartilage that.   So, I got my little funk out of the way and tomorrow I start fresh. The only thing I will be doing tomorrow is upper body weights (arms and back…. I do these lying down) and abs. I swear I really miss the workouts!!! Some people say they do not like to exercise and for me, it IS MY HAPPY PILL. When I weighed about 225 pounds I made a choice to join a gym (hated being the big girl amongst all those beautiful people) but I ALWAYS felt 100% after a fabulous workout. I am going to give it my all tomorrow…. in body (mini workout), mind (studying) and spirit (meditating….. did not do that earlier today- will do it before bed tonight) I really do not want to spread my gloominess on another day.

Dr. wishes for me to convey on here how we must take care of our knees and go easy on them. Knee replacement is quite common for those who push and push themselves into doing high impact activities. Maybe I should leave tennis for the pros? I just like it and I feel I am actually good at it. Perhaps when I am more fit. I feel like in the last week I have regressed, but I am not going to go down this sad sad pathetic road. Nope. Look out positivity, HERE I COME!

Nipped the grouchiness in the bud….

Now I am going to tell my dear sweet partner how much I love him.

Lots of deep breathing before I go to bed, just to make sure my mind is cool and still before I fall asleep……..

Sweet dreams….

(ALSO…. I saw a cute pic of a yoga girl poster and I decided that I am going to paint a picture of me in my fave yoga position. I have been lacking in the creative department lately and my spirit is suffering from not having that creative outlet. I am excited. I have not painted for a long time.)

Well I ended up twisting my knee awkwardly last night while playing tennis. Though it did not seem so bad, it is a little inflamed today. I am taking it easy for awhile since it does not feel so comfortable. This means the only activity I can do is upper body weights (which I have stopped in order for my lower body to catch up) and maybe some crunches, I am sure I can do crunches. The intake will surely decrease due to my decreased outtake *sigh* I will be eating foods that decrease inflammation, NOT CAUSE IT for the next few days. That is my commitment to a speedy recovery.

Well I slept in a little because I did not sleep well through out the night. However Oscar the little brat had no compassion and was biting my feet. We gave him extra food so he would not be screaming this AM (meowing, like a freak) but still he wanted me up early and after much ignoring I got up. My body just did not want to move. He seems to have forgiven me. He just wanted fresh meat! lol

But I tell you this, ALL IS RIGHT IN THE WORLD ! Lidecka has a new picture up of her precious darling girl, Berenika….. Oh my, what a sweetie! Life is good!.

Prayers for those who are struggling with Mother Nature.

Hugs….