Jenn

I listened to the little voice today and it lead me to some wise blogs.  I learned so much that I must share.  I do not want to lose site of two important things.

1. Sometimes we need to step back and look at The Bigger Picture.  What do we want for ourselves?  The time has come for me to toughen up a little, stop acting like a child who just wants and wants and mindlessly indulges.  I want something and my choices now have to reflect that future image.  And so the bigger future and smaller me picture helps me to re-focus.  This week I do not deny as much as I really ask myself if I REALLY WANT it and will ENJOY it as much as I will enjoy that future me I have in my mind.   And yes it is a realistic one.  It’s even more realistic then the one my doctor seems to think is okay.  After all, I know my body.

2. Our choices now can make us sad and moody OR they can help us to feel good about ourselves.  We Choose Happiness with every little choice.  Happiness is not something that happens to others and boo hoo.  Sure things can be tough, but every moment we have an opportunity to do something well or better.  Tis a choice!  Happiness!!  This week I make a choice to eat more whole foods.  This is for my well being and happiness.  Must leave out the wheat for awhile too.

This is my guide for the week.  Intuitive Eating is another guide, but if I do not follow the principles of The Bigger Picture and Choices For Happiness, then I might not see anything at all.  These ideas are immersed in Intuitive Eating, but I needed to see it from the human experience.  I have been walking blindly, but thanks to a wise voice in my head that I actually listened to (”go read this ladies older blogs”), I have some guidance and can see things again.

Must give thanks on this Sunday to a lady here named Stacey.  She has much to do in her life and yet she shares here and inspires.  Thank you to her and Buddyslim.

This week if I have had a good week (based on intuitive eating, these 2 principles stated here and general feeling of peacefullness), then I will have motivation that continues for a long time.  I apparently am getting some gift from David too.  I said I need something as I was desperate to motivate myself.  Now a gift.  But I wanted to find that internal motivation and in my search I found it.  Brilliance is everywhere.  Sometimes it just takes me bending over to lift a rock to unvail a naturally radiant seeking worm dancing like Stevie Wonder.  (Just feel like listening to Stevie Wonder for some reason.)  Other times it just takes me listening to the voice.  The voice in my head that is more wise then the fear and the sadness that holds me back.

Turn over a new leaf or a rock….

International Rock-Flipping Day 

Have a great day everyone.

 Wishing everyone a weekend and week that is filled with peace and happiness. 

I know if I feed myself well and continue working out like I have been, the results will come.  Just after 5 days I have seen so much improvement.  Seven straight days of cardio. (8 was my goal and tomorrow that is reached.)  This weekend I set a new activity goal and go with that.

Today I am living with patience and self love.  Yes, I tattooed it on my head. *wink*  Progress……. That and feeling fiesty has got to be a good thing! 

Tea cheers!

I just wanted to do a quick check in and say thanks to the responses on my last blog.  I have really been in a mood in the last couple days.  I was a bit nervous this weekend to go to a family members birthday this weekend (Grandma is 90 years young and grouchy grouchy…. oh dear) because I felt like I might bite someone’s head off.  HORMONES and stress I am sure.  But all went well and I am feeling so much better today.  Grandma was so happy to see all her grandkids together… her words!

I am not going to say I feel normal because I don’t.   Not getting the right amino acids from my diet and not enough iodine has really affected me.  So when looking at the foods that I have been avoiding and just not eating for what ever reason, it is not surprising that I have come to this point.  We get out what we put in and I have been slacking, not caring and have been progressing to this point.  Anyways, I am still not eating meat so much (fish yes) but I have added some supplements that are helping me feel human again.   Body temperature was at 98.1 this AM and so I could not be happier.   YEH I am sweating too…… libido is ON!  Joy!  Could use a little more energy, but this will come.  I know I just need to take care of myself.

Too much stress lately for sure.  Thank you buddies.  I have not been dealing well with stress and I know this has been a factor.  If these hormones get back into check, I know I will be myself soon!   Stress and environmental factors can deplete the body that is just trying to get enough of this and that to function it’s best.  Truly, no matter what shape our bodies are in right now, they are phenomenal in all that they do for us.  *hugs myself tight*

Have a great day everyone! 

When we learn to deal directly with our complaints and difficulties, romanticized ideas about the spiritual path are no longer meaningful. We see that what is important is to take responsibility for ourselves, and to always be aware of our thoughts, feelings, and actions. - Tarthang Tulku

This seemed to really ring true with me this week.  I have not been doing so so well, but I am working at it.  I think I have been more depressed lately because activity has not been my ‘pill’ of choice and it IS necessary for me.  I am so freaking tired of feeling awful and I am going to shoot myself if I hear a voice in my head that is all boo hoo.   MUST GET OUT OF THIS FUNK!

I know pretending does not work well sometimes, but when I go to see my client I am always a different person.  IT is like I put on this different face and the neat thing is, it has been working.  I have been enjoying that person I am in those moments.  Now why don’t I just hold on to that person?  Ahhh just random thoughts and questions today.

The Plan

Friday: Walking (?) , pilates (50) or Carmen’s DVD

Saturday: Elliptical (30), Hot Yoga (75+)

Sunday: Get Ripped or the gym, not sure

So the last food hit my lips at 7:45 which is too late to be eating for me, but life happens.  Teeth are brushed and flossed and I am sipping on my decaf green tea.

Did my tea inventory because I want to get back to replacing the careless snacking with a variety of teas.  I have indulged the last couple days and the cravings are not evil.  The moody beast just must have her days too.  They are not even regrettable.  That kind of thinking is what I am trying to avoid.

TEAS to choose from:

Matcha Tea - NEW today

Green Sencha tea

Green tea Goji Berry

Tetley decaf Green tea

Decaf Earl Grey

Lavender Earl Grey

Vanilla Earl Grey

Cream Earl Grey tea

White tea

Organic White Chai tea

Ayurvedic Herbal Infusion Woman’s tea

Kama Sutra Chai tea

Decaf Green tea

Peppermint tea

Ginger tea

Chamomile tea

Cherry tea

Red Rose black tea

Rooibos tea

Tea cheers to me and you.

Today I loved chocolate SO MUCH.  Off to work out a little.

Might do a little check in most nights to be accountable. (inspired by a buddy)  I am pleasant and so much happier when I am seeing improvements.

Oh and I picked up Carmen Electra’s DVD for fun.  I love that it is low impact!! (also inspired by a buddy who loves it)

Sweet dreams to all. 

Thank you for your comments and emails.  I had no idea that others went through the same or similar things and it felt good to breath and know that it was the right thing to share.  I think this place is so cool, but gush gush over Buddyslim we who have been here for SO LONG, know this.

Well hot yoga last night was a killer, but mostly it was hard because I have become so out of shape over the last few months.  Not being able to be active did really take a tole, but what I see is that my flexibility needs some work.  I worked muscles I did not even know I had!  It was not that hot and so this was some what disappointing.  I also felt a little hard on myself at times, because I could not do all the poses, but I was pretty impressed with my efforts.  When I started to get frustrated the instructor seemed to just see and he reminded us to do our best and just stay with what ever we were doing.  So this was a great start.  I am not sure I want to travel this far in the winter to get to the class and it is a bit pricey for me, but I am thinking about looking around to find classes downtown that I could possibly do at lunch time or earlier in the evening.  They would not be hot yoga classes though.  This place offers one good time for me a week and that is great.  I feel like once a week might just be ideal.  An 8:30 start had us finish after 10:00 and then I was wiped.  My head was alert, but my body just screamed that is had one heck of a work out.  I can not express this enough, I felt my body ALL NIGHT.  It was nice to wake up tight and not puffy.  All I had when I got home was an Asian pear and it tasted so amazing!!!  Like it’s perfection just seemed to be the best gift in the whole world…..hehe  A nice lemon ginger chamomile tea to accompany it.  They say I am going to feel the pain tomorrow.  HA… good grief!!!

I would love to say it was all spiritual  but mostly it was hard.  This was the most athletic I have been in months!  I was laying in bed thinking, when did I ever feel like this?  Whitewater rafting (9-5, paddling, swimming and walking), my walk when I touched all 6 major bridges on both sides in Saskatoon, first time I did Hard Body Yoga DVD and the first time I did the Get Ripped DVD.  This was something I will definitely do again as it is a real challenge for my body.  Plus my knee did not hurt once.  Felt some presence of the old injury but I just corrected myself, backed off and it was all good.  Heat really helped.  Plus we really were encouraged to take it as far as we could and not look at our neighbors.. yeh right! *rolls eyes*

I know it will be even better next time and I will feel the fun.   No spiritual awakening, but I found my body, this temple.  No freaking way am I feeding it junk.  When your in those poses you are only thinking, I will never eat junk again!!!!!! Well you are also feeling the moment and the joy of being in that pose.  But junk?   Ok, ok of course I am more of a realist.  I just am going to eat with thought, intention and respect.  This way there is no regret.

I really have to get to it here, but I wanted to blog my experience.

My goal for the rest of the week….. Continue with the activity (nothing more then cardio today) and pretty much no eating after supper unless truly hungry.  Junk is not even an option, unless it is Smarties and popcorn, yah know once in awhile….hehe (Thanks Jo).

Have a great day Everyone.  *wink*

Lunch: large salad (picture in my profile pics) and for dessert, grilled salmon.  Yum!

Just had a thought:  Yesterday, positive or negative, matters not now. Now is now.  What am I doing with it?

In just a bit of a funk, but nothing I can not handle.  Still I wished for inspiration, came on to buddyslim and found it.  I am so proud of our buddy Kama who has taken such wonderful care of herself in over coming diabetes and also for her strength.  My thoughts and prayers are with her and her family.  And so how does this affect me from so far away?

I am thankful that I know such lovely people here.  We share, we learn and we get motivated to do our best.  Today I feel the love and show the love.  We are hear on this earth for the learning and loving…….

Thank you Buddyslim for providing me with the ability to get myself motivated.  I use to think that one could get too dependent on the computer.  Indeed that could happen.  But ultimately we can seek to find what is already within.  And this tool brings us closer to the human spirit then most things I find.  People here on this site understand.

This week I only think one thing….. LOVE.

I love me with how I think.  I love me with how I eat and how I move this body.  This is how I love everyone better in my life.  I love me first.  This is something I have not been doing ideally, but now is another time.  LOVE.

Hugs and kisses……

I am not going to say I did not eat when I was a little stressed because I did a little, but it was all in portions and I really feel pretty fine.  Amazing actually.  No thinking of any foods as not so good and I really enjoyed everything-food and non-food things.  The stress I should say came from a strange and interesting source (not family) when David and I got a little off track around some park and very much ended up where we should not have been!  Well we were getting some strange looks as we drove down this very wide walking path…. ahhh…. It was CRAZY and my heart was just a racing, but thank the heavens for revealing a much needed escape route…hehe.  My stepfather had left money for sundaes from DQ because he was out working the majority of our visit, but we resisted that.  Actually at the time I felt ill…lol    It just did not appeal.  However when we were at home eventually, I suggested sundaes and so we made little ones.  I felt so famished once we got back and I was able to sit.  It was insane and I got some much desired, adventure?  I never knew this place existed when I lived here, well not really.  So anyways, all through out my sleep that night I would wake myself up giggling at where geocaching had taken us.  I WAS NOT LAUGHING as we experienced everything…HA.  After it was funny.  *big smiles*

I am most proud of my Mom who has lost I do not know how much weight, but she is looking so much better since being diagnosed with high cholesterol and adjusting her diet.  Her numbers have been cut in half and she is so much littler.  She seems to have more energy and is degrees happier.  I am so proud of her.  And I just decided at this moment that I am going to send her a card, like I would send a buddy a booster.  My Mom has not joined the computer age….hehe.  So a good old fashion card will be a nice surprise and motivator for her I think.

I also discovered this really neat meditation spot near a church that I did not know existed (it was made a year after I left).  It was this cool labyrinth that I can not wait to walk through completely.  I really did not have the time then, but for the first time I am looking forward to going back.  Everything just seemed so incredibly positive.  Twas terrific! *smiles*  And it was another goecache near by that took us to this location.  Who knew!?!

Must study now but I will read blogs tomorrow night as tonight we are getting a new toilet and sink.

Love you all and wish you a great day and week! 

Yah baby !!!

What an amazing game tonight against Venus at the US Open!  7-6, 7-6

So inspired, I am off to work out with a little Nadal motivation.  *wink wink*

Already did my strength training earlier, why not some cardio as I watch the game.

Have a good one everyone!