Jenn

FIRST: Thank you to my buddies who were there for me at various times.  You are so fantastic !!!

Second: Intuitive Eating -  This is truly the only way for me!  That without saying, I have needed to just keep in mind points because I am either not eating enough or I eat too much later in the day and that DOES NOT work….lol  As we know.  So I am trying to reject the extreme diet mentality, but I am still trying to be aware, of course.

This is no excuse, but someone in my family has a very serious health condition and I did EE (emotionally eat) this week. I was not allowed to call this person because I was not suppose to know, but things are Out now and I can communicate, thank goodness.  Things are going to be tough, but I believe things will be ok.  I have to believe!

Anyways, I knew I was doing it (EE) and I just did it.  Well I was at least with the food when I was doing it.  Half way through what ever I was eating (snacking foods or left overs, I can not actually recall as it was days ago) I do remember that I made myself slow down and that was good.  I have figured it out, if I can actually BE WITH THE FOOD in those moments, it does not seem like the old EE at all.  So this is improvement.  And then this week, I did very well, so all in all a good week with the food.

I have been honoring my hunger for the most part and this is so empowering.   When I was out with my client I had my lunch and she had hers.  I was so satisfied with my sushi I did not feel like I needed another thing.  She told me she bought me one of those cookies from Subway and I felt like I could have a taste and so I took of a piece for the taste, but that was satisfying enough.  I was full.  I respected my fullness!!  Food is not the enemy.  Not even the choice I made to eat a few plus a few more chocolates yesterday was evil or sinful.  It was what it was.  Thank goodness.  I was not good this week and I was not bad.  I just enjoyed life, moved as much as I could and feel content.  Have I lost, I do not know.  But my head is on straight and I am ready to have another great week.

This week, because I have been doing pretty well with the top 6 of the 10 Principles of Intuitive Eating, this week I kind of pay a bit more attention the the last 4.  I have kept them in mind, but I do find it a little consuming, overwhelming and just unnecessary to do it all, so to speak.  I naturally did what I could and now, I can work on those things I struggled a little with and move on to being a little more attentively with the others.  All good here my buddies.

THIS WEEK I learned that I can sit on my butt and not axiously move to the kitchen because I do not like where my head is at.  It can happen.  I also learned and is not diet related, but I learned that this life is so precious and in an instant EVERYTHING can change, so it is good to make each moment count.  It is so important to make ammends and do now what you in the past put off.

10 Principles of Intuitive Eating

1.  Reject the diet mentality - pretty close though I think points are ingrained and helpful for eating enough and then not going over board. It is a tool.

2.  Honor your hunger- no starving, lol, like I have never done this anyways.  When hungry I did just eat something little to tide me over.

3.  Make peace with your food - a little EE, but I feel good with this, but will still be aware.

4.  Challenge the food police - no bad foods.  I started to see carbs as something to avoid just for awhile and then I realized this would only make me stupid, LITERALLY.  So I checked that reality and enjoyed moderately.

5.  Respect your fullness - did VERY well with this.  No discomfort this week.  Though I was pleasantly full after the mole sauce, chicken and beans at Labamba!  Wow… pumpkin seed mole sauce - YUM!

6.  Discover the satisfaction factor - a little of anything that I desired in the moment, savoring slowly, was simply the only way to live.  Pleasure and moderation.  Should have bought better quality chocolates yesterday and had a little less.  But all is good.  No regrets, but rather lessons to learn from.

7.  Honor your feelings without using food - work on to be more consistent

8.  Respect your body - continue……..

9.  Exercise - feel the difference  — keep it up!  I did a lot of walking this week and pilates.  Some pain prevented me from doing certain activities, but that is life.  I did what I could and I am happy about this.  I was not so happy in some of the moments when I felt like I could not do this or that.  But I GOT OVER IT and did not dwell for too long…hehe

10. Honor your health  - my motto that is old, but some how I always must carry it in my pocket like a pebble for those times when it does not seem to be important.

The most important thing for me to remember and this is an Intuitive Eating philosophy, “you will not get a nutrient deficiency or weight gain from one snack, one meal, or one day of eating.  It’s what you eat consistently over time that matters, progress not perfection is what counts.”

So I want to write something quick and yet do not know what to say. It feels like I am just now talking to a new friend I have not seen in awhile. What to say?

I have been frustrated and I do not want sympathy, please! But just wanted to share that I injured my knee again, same thing and they will not do anything for it, they can’t they say. SO I NEED TO BE CAREFUL! No I was not even doing a sport, I was climbing up one very high step of a bleacher to watch a baseball game and just twisted it wrong. Not only that, instead of resting it properly I went a little hard with life when I should have just sat on my butt for awhile. So yesterday was a sit on my butt day drugged out on some most pleasant medication that actually helped me to keep my behind glued to the couch and bed. Seriously I felt drunk for much of the day. It feels so much better today. BUT I KNOW I MUST BE CAREFUL.

I have had some other health issues that have lead me to need to do a bit of a cleanse. Nasty cravings!! I am using food and as much activity as I can to cleanse/detox and get better. One way to really detox is to sweat a lot and work the big muscles (I can not work my quads…. *tear, tear*). Well since I am trying to take it easy with any kind of impact, this is tough. I am looking to the Wildcat activity chart and giving it my all, with in reason. Seriously I have been slacking and it is time to work on my strength and flexibility a little. Could I have re-injured myself because I have let certain activities fall from my routine? Perhaps. Could be just an old injury (my Mom has the same thing I just found out - weird!). Matters not now. Now it is time to get at it and make it better.

Study, workout, read blogs at lunch time, study and go to book club tonight. Missed Canadian Idol last night. Yes I am watching it and loving it like the older gal I am. I hear from some young people that it is so yesterday……lol Well I guess I never use to watch it, but now it is a part of my week. I should be able to see it soon. *grins*

So have a great week everyone! It is time for a loss

Respect - activity, balanced nutrition, portions, GOOD nutrition, savor, adhere to the principles of good digestion & feed my actual hunger! - I ate at night sometimes, but I feel good. Today, NOT tomorrow or Monday, TODAY I continue to make each meal count! The last is in the past, though after some late night Sunchips I did start my day light - spinach, tomato, snap peas and a hard boiled egg.

Faith - THIS REALLY worked and I feel great !

Record in journal - I did. 29 - 42 - 29 - 29 - 31 - today I am aiming for 26.

Relax & laugh each day. - everything in balance and I think this was a good one. Tuesday ate late night popcorn - a mistake really because even air popped popcorn is high in points.

Aim for at least 8 servings of fruits and veggies each day. 9 - 7 - 6 - 9 - 6 - Next week/starting today, I aim for more fruits and veggies, ESPECIALLY choosing fruit instead of sweets. How many times do I have to tell myself that buying a whole bag of dark Bliss chocolate for the Book cub is just a huge mistake 5 days before the actual meeting *sigh*

Appropriate fluids for the day. *check*

*** Will be adding that little reminder as one of my goals To Not Eat After Supper!!! …..unless starving

Well……………. Why wait!

No Eating After SUPPER ! (……………………………………..unless starving or uncomfortable. Must listen to my body.)

The scale will likely say I maintained. I did however really get my activity up there. I even did Hard Body Yoga and it hurt, in a good way. Most of all, I really liked my attitude this week. I would not trade that for even a loss, actually.

Now, in the moment…..

Setting my goals has not really been working.  I know how I want to eat and it is spiritually, emotionally and environmentally directed.  I need this for myself.  If one lives by any kind of morals then it should make things a lot easier when it comes to choices, right?  Ha, yeh right!  Well I am hoping.  I am tired of feeling selfish and over indulgent.  I know George is visiting soon, Good old George, but I have not worn the fat pants is a darn long time.  Time to think like the Buddha would and get real with myself.   I desire more for myself then the instant gratification that is over and done with before the sweetness is even swallowed.  NO MORE.  Where is my temple that was so near?  No more.

I am not sad.  I am glad to see things so clearly.   This is my new moment to progress not digress.
Only positive thoughts.

On the news of exercise because the other was a tadpole short of ideal, I walked and walked around downtown checking out the street fair.  Found some cheap books that I am really excited about.  So I would say my knee is MUCH better.   I need to get back into shape though.   This is the longest I have ever gone being so sedentary and I will never take for granted again the ability to MOVE and MOVE a lot.  The excess on my legs and behind let me know today that I have had ENOUGH!

And so I ask myself each time I eat this week, “is that Temple-quality food?” or “is this Earth-friendly food?”  I even made the cards to remind me.  I have a short memory sometimes.  *rolls eyes*………

Respect?   Oh yes I do deserve it.

The thing about the last blog appearing so long, I did not write most of it. This is shorter. Quickies can be good too, even necessary!

When I wrote the last blog I was not really sad. A little p-o’ed but certainly so thrilled to be aware of myself, my thoughts and what I do with food in the not so ideal times. I feel so awesome and for so many reasons. I just did not want my buddies to think that I was still in monster state. Though does it ever go away? I think not.

I have been working out usually at different times through out the day and eating regular small meals/snacks. Studying outside on the terrace today as I could not bring myself to take Oscar back in so I took my books out for a bit. The heat was just a beating down so we only stayed out for about 25 minutes. Made some homemade pea soup in the crockpot. And maybe after some more studying and supper we just might go and play tennis. We will see.

We have a new game and we waited so long and I mean I felt like the annoying kid who kept saying “is it in yet?” Nothing like a game called Pandemic to make you work together to solve the little issue of us vs. the disease. I am so morbid but I have a certain fascination for such things. It is kind of like me and vampire movies I guess. Just my thing. I love that we get to work together, David and myself.

Life is so good and I am so thankful. Off to read about energies with in the body and how everything we think and feel creates our biology. So keep it positive, deal with the not so good because procrastination really bites us in the ass and smile. Because you never know who is watching.

And from Jane with the challenge. I helped a gentlemen up when he was quite down today. I think the poor guy was shocked with my good intensions, but that was what came for me. I was open and I just did!

I am back to recording just to make sure I am getting proper nutrition and I feel fabulous!!! 24-28 points is the goal and I am basing my points on how much I am moving too.

Biggest hugs………

So, how do people who do Weight Watchers handle the OOPS I WENT OVER MY POINTS THIS WEEKEND.  I have to say I like starting on a Friday, because then you can indulge, BUT THEN you must get back on track and start your week like you want to get something accomplished.   Still I did over indulge a tad.  No, no chastising!  Just good workouts that will continue through out the week.

I indulged on the dairy, fries (?wtf?) and cookies.  But then I also worked out something fabulous on Friday and Saturday and then went a bit lighter on Sunday.  So, I am human.  I never eat fries anymore . I just do not want, but I did crave and did not resist - I ENJOYED.  Could have eaten the last few slower or stopped though, that would have been lady like…LOL  Anyways, I wish you all a great week.  And I will use my 25 each day, like a lady and not a wolf.

Respecting me and the oh so smaller stomach I have.  I think I kind of know what it must feel like for those who have gastric bypass surgery and then have an ounce to much food.  Wow.  Feel the fullness and stop, OH YEH!  Thin people stop eating when full.  Good tip!  *remember THIS as one of my goals*

Hugs to you, hugs to me…….. and a better and better we will be……  Grief, must stop now. 

I watched the French Open today (7AM) and I absolutely love Rafael Nadal (won in 3 straight sets), but also I really think Roger Federer is one of a kind and a terrific human being. Nadal is so hot! Anyways sometimes winning when there is not much of a challenge is not always the ideal. A challenge where you have to really really work at things is so much better and I hear rewarding.

Every time I have a not so fine day for my intake I realize now that it is just one day. I am tracking my points for a while because it is in me to test myself and show a little discipline and moderation. The best thing I did Friday was to decide to track my points. So after 2 days my extra points are gone! Ha! Twas a terrific weekend in all ways. Played Twister, did some shopping, did some reading (no studying), walked to the movies in the rain with my sweetie (Indiana Jones), watched Sex in the City (the series) watched and listened to the rain, made some amazing cookies (small batches are good!) and relaxed. Oh yeh and on the day where I used up the majority of my extra points, I had a terrific workout day of intense cardio and strength training (9 points of exercise). I woke up feeling amazing!

So the next 5 days I will be consuming 25 points per day. Life is good. I just require light boundaries sometimes. There is a type of personality that works well with WW and these type programs. There is no denial, but you do have to use your head a little. It is so nice to say “no thank you” with confidence then to accept and eat something mindlessly. A good place….

So why Twister? I had to play it after Jon Bon Jovi was a guest in Sex in the City and was playing it with Sarah Jessica Parker. Of course they collapsed on each other and yadda yadda…. Note to self, no playing Twister when I do Hard Body Yoga the day before and I do not stretch before the game because twisting myself up like a pretzel is scary stuff - felt like I may scream with the pain of holding those positions….hehe Fun times! What a masicist I am!

Ahh…. Have a great day and week Everyone. Simple… eat healthy or healthier and move more, for us! I will try and do my best

Well I have been doing well. Not super strict either. I am enjoying treating my body well. Nice to have a break and give my screaming bowling butt a break.

What was really strange was that I had a bit of an anxious day as I was reading yesterday. Just old thoughts in the pursuit of becoming my best me. Well David wanted to go out for a treat and I could not think what I wanted. Really, THIS is not like me at all. I just did not want. Could not think of anything. Well, we opted for an ice cream place where I had chocolate and blood orange sorbet. Yes 2 flavors. I love the taste experience….lol But it was dairy free and next time I would just get one flavor… chocolate, but I learned something. I was not eating out of stress. Not an ideal day, but I was not thinking of food to solve anything or comfort me. Heck it was not even my idea to have a treat. But because I had left some extra points for a dessert (I assumed fruit because this is all we had) it was no big deal. I went over my points only by one (25 pt day) and it was all good. It was good to give my strained muscle a bit of a break, do some reading and go out for a treat with my sweetie. What was stressful? Triggers and little arguments! I guess we just butt heads sometimes, like once a month. I know it is often because I do not express what I want to do. I just go along and then perhaps resentment builds. Ahhh learning….

Have not been getting my veggies as much as I would like, but all stocked up now. I had a high protein day (it has been a high intensity month for exercise) so having a little sugar was fine…. just not making it a habit.

What do you call a serving a fruit of vegetables???

I say a half a banana, a good half cup of grapes, a medium carrot, stuffed cup of spinach, half cup of real juice, stuffed or heaping half cup of broccoli are all a serving for me. I have been getting 6ish and I want 8-12. So, it should be better now that we went shopping. Goal is to replace one snack with veggies instead of, well other choices. I know I could have looked up what the Canadian or American health organizations call a serving, but just curious what others eat for veggies.

Since I am really becoming aware of my chewing, I feel content with just smaller portions and less food generally and this includes veggies. But I have energy and feel good. SO I guess this is most important.

Looked at my goals and I am doing all right! Off to work out and study.

Weighing in Monday…… it is about time ! Ha!

Have a great day everyone. Feed yourself like you deserve to be fed, exercise your precious body and laugh. I am making a choice to laugh at the insanity!!! *hugs*

P.S.: Love this blog and had to share!

http://jenndombroski.buddyslim.com/2008/04/15/an-orange-vs-chocolate/

LOVE Buddyslim and all the cool minds out there.

Had a great day of being on plan and I am going to bed with 24 points under my belt and this is my target number.  No eating after supper and it feels good.  I kept active today and tomorrow is a full book/study day.  No client.  No laundry.   Maybe minimal cooking.  No pressure.  Taking the day off from working out… my first out of 15 days… I think it is needed.  Study, study, study…….  Today was a little overwhelming in that it felt like I was just not getting enough done which was just a matter of poor perspective.  All is well.  Have a great night.

Little by little….. for me.  Respect and a little dedication feels so darn fine!

This is the question.

Well David is not one to beg, lol, but he did suggest that I not weigh in. In fact he said I should stand naked infront of the mirror and let that image be the factor that tells me that I am doing well. I know that with this diet I have not lost anything and this was not my goal. My goal was to feel better. Find some health. I am sure not losing has more to do with the fact that I did not exercise enough this month. A combination of busyness and laziness for sure. So, he rarely suggests anything weight loss/diet related (he knows…hehe) but I agree with him. At some point in the coming month I will get on that scale because I think it is a good time. It will tell me whatever. But I feel good and I do not want to let a number dictate my mood. It will not tell me a thing. Sure I feel like a cop out, or maybe a little in denial, but it is not for me at this time.

So, how do I know I have gained a little? Well, I like how I look, but where my skin was really, really lose, well it is only a little lose. So I know I have not lost, this is for sure. The old skin needs to take it’s time, just like me. I need to be patient and enjoy the journey. CERTAINLY, I am kicking my behind into action. More workouts!!! Consistency. Persistence. Dedication to my heart, muscles, cleansing, improved mood…. Cheers to our improved health! Every day we make choices for ourselves and though some are not for our diets, we do make them. And I think that we are coming to a better and better place as we just make more and more healthy choices. What are you doing for you that is making you feel amazing about yourself? Keep it up. Thank you for being my inspiration. Have a great week *hugs*

Tea cheers to you all……

(by the way, did I tell you that I am not drinking or eating caffeine??? I was studying yesterday and I wanted a tea so bad to stay awake. I took a 45 minute nap and awoke to finish my section. NO TEA. I will finish this detox with food combining as the path because I want some darn green tea. I miss it more then anything and it is not even about being addicted to the caffeine. Just had a feeling like I wanted. Also, I am journaling/counting points just to make sure I get proper food and calories. Have not been eating enough some days. Too much other days…. ahhh the story of our lives. Anyways… something to share )